Lmao exactly seems like a lot of parents out there I've encountered are fearful of what I have to say even though I have no kids my birth people are a perfect example to use. That made my ex-therapist in rage giving me that damn look like 'you got the nerve to say that yet you have no kids,' told her 'apparently, you're not too bright that you couldn't come up with the shit that I have already said did and moved on!' ooh she was hot when I said that lol!
Funny how people agree with nurturing and in the same sentence kids need to defend themselves they need to be like adults which is it?!
"Placing adult responsibilities on kids is seriously wrong too, and robs them of their childhood."
Agreed. At age 10, I am the one who is making logical sense about things should and should be, I mean really?!? Probably this has hone my skill in being logical and calling out bs when needed! Like I asked people, in what way does this make sense? No answer how typical!
People said your siblings already dealt with their shit time for you to embark the journey of taking your parents' shit and being the one to take on the responsibility I said wtf?!?! I asked people is this a story of Jacob and Esaw?!? That doesn't allow me to breathe on my own since these people tell me I gotta put up with more nonsense!
I didn't tell you this: one session I had with that lousy ex-therapist, she had me to read the chapter of Joseph the one who was thrown into the well at 17. He did suffer, was made into a General in the Egyptian army, married an Egyptian woman had 2 kids, and it was like 30 yrs since he's seen his brothers and father. His brothers didn't recognize him all being shaved until he revealed who he was and yea he forgave them.
Again, is my life the story of Joseph too? Ex-therapist said what my parents did was a blessing for me to utilize how to be strong-willed blah blah I just fucking looked at her and said if that was the case, then I wouldn't have been raised codependent, would've had better outside role models to help me along the way, then still wouldn't be living with them if that was the case! Yes, good things came out of it for Joseph as everything in my life has always been a dead end that chapter didn't really relate to me.
Hmm, yea, makes sense why I have PTSD! The woman who did my intake before seeing the therapist told me you have a lot of trauma going on. About damn time someone finally sees the real issue behind it yet previous people told me 'you're just stressed everybody goes through it just breathe' or 'you're too damn sensitive stop using stress as an excuse.' What person growing up from a child back then needed to be so high strung and stressed out daily? Not one parent I have encountered could officially answer that question! Not even the damn school counselors could answer that!
The home environment is very toxic and lots of stress, hmm probably explains why I didn't do okay in school or fairly okay in school. I couldn't think or sleep my mind is still racing a 100 mi a minute. I do get bad headaches/migraines from time to time, my bp has gone up not too high but like normal high which I have gotten it back done to normal range. I am like people still don't find this to be a problem?! I wouldn't doubt a lot of child abuse survivors have some form of PTSD.
Yea, I was never taught how to manage or help my PTSD. I was told to suck it up and deal with the stress that people are jerks oh well. Lol how do we deal with jerks is the question?