Hello, I'm Aj from Batangas

Bago lang dito at gusto ko makahanap ng mga bagong kaibigan na makakausap at sana dito ko na rin mahanap ung inaasam asam nilang FOREVER (kung meron man talaga). :p God Bless y'all.

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I want to share my story to you Guys maybe because of the music video above and other posters and commentors here push me to share this and besides most of you have a  very wide range of understanding base on what I have read so give me your opinion please and let me begin it. Let's hide my real name into Braxx, I'm 18 years old and a first year college and taking up a course which is BS in Computer Engineering at a one private institute. Since when I was Elementary, I have a lot of crushes out there which are boys, since I was elementary I ignored it never to think what really is happening but I have a small doubt about it. As time goes by the more I get attracted to same Gender until I was in High school, attracting to the same gender is one of the things that I hate and afraid the most because I don't want to be what I have watched and read on some books. (Movies and book of LGBT community.) When I was 4th year high school, Nagka "GF" ako trying to correct the mistake that I was thinking about my self, but It wasn't really working. Dun ka lang naconfirm na Bisexual ako. :( Hindi ako sanay sabihin sa sarili kong BI ako kc nga ang sagwa talaga >.< But the mere fact came yet na ito talaga ko pero hindi ko pa rin matanggap na ito ako. :( Bukod kc sa panahon natin ngaun na hndi pa tanggap ung LGBT, marami pa ding member ng 3rd sex company ang nakakaranas ng diskriminasyon, panlalait at hindi ginagalang. Aside being arrogant, I am a honorable students, I always got an award when I was Elementary, high school and even now at college and they expect me that this is who really I am. Ano na lang sasabihin nila sakin pag once na ipinakita ko na ito talaga ko? Oo madaling sabihin na "I DONT CARE WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO SAY" sa kanta ni Elsa pero kung ikaw mismo ung lulugar a ganitong sitwasyon ang hirap eh. :( Ang hirap hirap talaga! >.< I have read some articles and research that being gay, lesbian can be healed that is why I was taking my time to read those article and research but it was not all clear. Ang hirap tanggapin :( Though sometimes it was obvious on the way I act, move or speak but still I'm denying for it. And one of the factors that I am really considering is those word of wisdom which are written on the bible. I'm a born again christian and everytime I heard the issues about 3rd sex in bible mas lalo kung nahihirapang tanggapin ung sarili ko, nag research na ko kung ano ba talaga ko but all the symptoms of being bisexual is almost on mine though being belong to 3rd sex is not a disease. :( BUT THIS IS REALLY WHO I AM ! GUSTONG GUSTO KO NANG IPAKITA KUNG CNU TALAGA KO PERO AUKONG LAYUAN AKO NG MGA TAO SA PALIGID KO, AUKONG IKAHIYA NILA KO AT AUKONG SUWAYIN UNG DIYOS. NAKAKALITO! ANG HIRAP TALAGA! Iniisip ko nga, meron na bang chemist na nakaimbento ng instant capsule na kapag ininum mo straight guy ka na ? :( I dont think so. Minsan nga nag babasa ko ng mga open forum like this, group chat na pinag ousapan ung ganitong bagay, nagbabasa rin ako ng inspirational quotations to accept your self at nakikinig ng advice sa t.v , radio o online mula sa mga taong may malawak na pang unawa sa buhay AND YET ONCE I HOLD THE BIBLE , LAHAT UN NAWAWALA na naitatago ko na naman ung sarili ko. Guys ang hirap ng ganto, kilala nila ko sa pagiging joker, kalog, masipaG, matalino but all those is really not I am. :( Kung may mali sa nalalaman ko base sa mga sinasabi ko would you mine to correct me ? Would anyone advice me considering the three factors which are PSYCHOLOGICAL, SPIRITUAL and MORAL ? Explain it with a very detailed information please. :( Thank you so much for those who will give their sympathy in me.
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