I had a long chat with this guy in town today. He has a big heart and a bright future ahead of him...
"The biggest problem I am facing is my self confidence. It dates back to when I was four years old and I lost my big brother to leukaemia. He was seven at the time. His passing really affected me and I did not get any emotional support from my father.
He is an African American and my mother is Norwegian and growing up as a kid I saw him in fights all the time. He was angry at the world for various reasons one of which was that he was mistreated badly as a child. Back in the day some Norwegians were quite racist and my Dad did not like it, so he took his anger out on them and hurt a lot of people.
I will never justify his actions but I know that deep down inside he is a good man despite letting his anger get the best of him. I believe that as human beings we are born good hearted and all we want in life is to be loved, to be appreciated and to be happy. Sometimes in the pursuit of those things people make mistakes and somewhere down the road, we lose control of who we really are in nature. I had a lot of suppressed anger as a kid, even dating back to kindergarden, because of the emotional stress I faced as a foreign kid in school, being bullied daily, losing my brother and my Dad.
It seemed that bad things happened one after another. My grades were bad so people judged me on that apart from two teachers that have convinced me that I can do well in life. Even so, I always managed to keep a smile on my face, no matter what.
Now I am grateful for all that has happened, it has made me the man I am today and it has made me realize who I want to be and who not be. My dream is to become a musician and I want to inspire people through my music. I have so many feelings and thoughts that words can't explain, only through music am I actually capable of expressing myself on a much deeper level.
Friends tell me that what I produce is great and that helps, but I am never satisfied with my work, it is never good enough, but I know I have a long way to go towards perfection and I know that my light will shine bright some day and when it does, it will shine forever. I just need to believe in myself and keep my chin up. All I want is to be happy. Music makes me happy so I am taking that path."