SRI SRI THAKUR ON HIMSELF--------------
To love people was my nature right from the childhood- I could not stand anybody's sufferings. When I came across a suffering person, I felt as if I afflicted with it myself. Hence I could not rest content till I ameliorated his suffering. Formal education, money and manpower-none I had. Love was the only capital I possessed. With a heart filled with abundant love, I had set out like an adventurer-never believing anything as impossible. I had no other way out, except doing well to the human being. I had not even an iota of doubt and hesitation regarding my capability in this respect. I felt as if the basic urge of self preservation of my own being had been goading me irresistibility in the interest of the preservation of all other beings. Perhaps sensing the state of my helplessness the Supreme Father out of His bountiful compassion had pointed out to me the inner truth of everything. Though I did not have much of formal education yet I had acquired enough knowledge of the all-round well-being of individual and collective life. I had been able to acquire this knowledge by the grace of the Supreme Father. Talk of science, literature, scriptures, doctrine, etc. I knew nothing of them. But what I had observed with my own eyes and through the very same observation whatever I had been able to realize. I suppose, it had left nothing uncovered. Whatever I had said was based on my own perception only. So I did not have any doubt about my sayings. But I felt extremely hurt when I saw in spite of being aware of all these things you remained unmoved and inert and et an easy-go-lucky life. But know this for certain, idle gossip I did not like at all. On your ceaseless striving only lies the solution to sorrows and sufferings of the people of Bengal, nay, India, nay the World over. You could not sense my agony. Otherwise you could not remain confined to your worldly attachments, verily I say unto you if, at all you want to do justice to your worldly attachments, better ignore them and to what I say.
My problem during boyhood days was-How to distinguish between what was good and what was bad. What was good in a particular given condition might turn out otherwise under different condition. What to do? How to deal with so many people? What was the way out? These were my problems. Suddenly I found out in a copy book written as such "Do unto others as you wish to be done by". I heaved a great sigh of relief and felt as my feverish temperature suddenly had lowered down with heavy perspiration. Everything became easy. It was really very important to learn the art of getting on with the people. Hence it was a very important aspect of Dharma (Science of Life), because Dharma dealt with life.
I had not much of bookish knowledge as such. I was not so good student at school. Right from the days of my childhood, I did not feel like studying, didn't find favor with Mother Saraswati (Hindu Goddess of learning), I had not read Gita. Generally people read Gita at least. I had not even gone through that. Nevertheless I had read a bit of Kumarnath's Gita just for the sake of a glimpse. This was what you may call the extent of my bookish knowledge. Even I had not read `Kathamrita' of Ramakrishna or any works of Vivekananda. I did not understand much of the thing nor did I feel it was necessary too. I used to do what I felt myself. I did not even bother to know what I said whether it carried any sense. I came to know about this when I first went to Haritakibagan they used to say-my thoughts were identical with the thoughts of many eminent persons and about their comments. I used to be surprised.
Nevertheless, whatever I had spoken in very normal and natural manner, if you followed them or for that matter if you followed me- you would have realization like me-you could become like me. This much I could emphatically testify.