Haven't read this yet. However I am single, a single mother, and have been most my life, but more so for the past 6 years.
It has truly transformed me, I have really only desired God most my life, due to having endured much abuse and deadly situations, I grew to hate men.
I don't now though of course. lol
Once I was given the opportunity to have a 3 year godly relationship, (it had it's pains too) and I didn't handle it well, I had NO trust whatsoever, a very essential need for a healthy relationship.
God I only could trust, until God showed me I didn't even trust Him, if I couldn't trust my relationship and the godly man I was last with, to God's care to begin with.
I lost that man 6 years ago, I successfully pushed him away.
The most painful gut wrenching lesson I have ever had to learn.
God knew I would though.
God has unfailingly been there for me!!
He is all that I desire! He is better than my very life and all things in, to me!
I have not nor do I seek for a man, I do not want one.
However, once I thought God was going to put me with someone, (there was a lot revealing reason to believe this at the moment) from what that man received from God and from things I've received from God just came together.
Back when I didn't feel the need for confirmation at every corner, (which was just mid last year, lol) I walked in Faith.
I cried every night to God.
I simply did not want this, but like a fire that burned, I could not put it out, it was the belief that God wanted this.
I knew that God's will is the Rule, it is done no matter what, and it does great harm to fight against it.
I know NOTHING, other than my GOD, and I trust Him completely!
SO I went on forward in Faith, but without ceasing from prayer.
I know that if there was a chance I could have been misled, I knew I wouldn't be by Him, acknowledge Him, His authority and Power, and He will direct or make your path straight.
He rewards your Faith in Him.
I knew that without Faith I will not please Him, and I believed that this was His will for me right now.
I discovered, something Great!
When I cried every night in His arms, I remembered Him- as man, Jesus, on the Mount of Olives before His arrest, He wept bitterly and sweat great drops of blood, crying out to His father that this cup may be removed from Him and then He ended it with, Your will, not Mine, be done.
What You want God, not what I want.
This IS Key, and was ground breaking for me.
I already lived this way, but somehow missed that I could pray this way too!
While I stepped out in Faith at the same time.
OF course my situation can hardly be compared to Our Lord Jesus's, our sweet Savior!!
The life of Jesus is our example, God knows I have given up my own desires long ago, and only want what He wants, I can't bear to live any further on any of my mistakes again,
I know, I know nothing about what is good for me outside of Jesus.
Everything God has shown me and this other man, came together, so until God steps in to redirect our steps, I keep on in that direction and just TRUST HIM.
Either way, God's will, Will be Done, right?
What ever God's will is, I want to be in it wholeheartedly and submissively, but I followed Jesus' example, and prayed His words along the way.
God removed that cup from me, and now when I cry in His arms about that, it is out of Pure Gratitude!!!
He has kept me to Himself. <3
He is My Love, He is my Creator.
The Creator and Lover of All His people!