Salam and hello everyone,
It has been quite awhile since I last post. Life has become too demanding, my son's major school examination, work, family - the usual distraction from the social media. Though I thought I am able to multitask, i found myself drained at the end of the day - physically & emotionally.
Truthfully, I stayed away much from the social media - Facebook (yeah..i can hear you groan, my friends lol), Google Plus, even my blog too. Mainly because I needed to step away as I found those who I called friends were using what I wrote and shared to gossip and back bite behind my back. Although I am no stranger to this, to actually read what have been written/shared about me with other friends was quite... disconcerting and upsetting. Especially when my misfortune and difficulties were made to be butt of a joke among them.. to be ridiculed.. to be dissed.... That just... wow.... I can't describe the feeling.. too much to feel that it actually numbed me.. which was a blessing i think. Thats when I knew I need to step back and re-assess myself. In the process, I lost some friendship..but I discovered myself.
I am sorry if there's anyone missing me (are there? lol), but it was something I MUST do (belatedly tho I am afraid).. I am a changed person now.. quieter..deep.. and more positive, I should say... As much as it hurt, I find myself pitying them... really...
I miss you guys, honestly.. and I feel guilty to disappear and leave without notice.. I have found profound friendship here.. though I do not interact every day with you guys.. I thought about you guys..
I have few things to settle until the end of the year..then hopefully I will be back by January :)
Love and hugs to everyone,
Much love, xoxo