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Johanna Moeller
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When I die...
With all the death in my life I'm ready to make some decisions for when I die.  Oh, I'm not sick.  I might be like my grandma who is still kicking at 96.  Or an anvil could fall on my head tomorrow.  But I've seen what the lack of planning does.  I know thi...

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Moving!
We're finally moving out of our "six months equals five years" home. I'm trying to find balance.  Not get angry and bitter about this place but still be motivated to move.  I understand the draw to see all the negative is a way to pull myself emotionally fr...

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Mother Mother
Mother Mother I hear your voice.... ....in my mind. How can I fix these wounds .. when there's this living, breathing embodiment of my insecurities. .. my negative voices. .. everything I think about myself she says about herself. How can I hope to be okay ...

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Queen of {broken} Hearts
Facebook keeps you updated on all the things you've been through over the years with their "on this day" feature. This morning I saw a reminder of when my dear friend, Heather and her husband brought us a captain's bed for the living room and took away my o...

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The struggle is real?
Counseling was so very perfectly timed.  I typically have been going every other or every third week.  I think I even skipped a month somewhere in there.  Things were going pretty well.  Honestly, even after Cecily's passing I felt I was handling it fairly ...

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The Day After
Cecily's celebration of life was yesterday.   It was a fascinating thing seeing so many people from so many facets of her life.  One thing was for sure.  I'm fairly certain that everyone in her life is an excellent hugger. I stood up to do my damndest to ho...

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Dearest Cecily
It's been the longest week ever. This may be a little disjointed and possibly out of order but here we go.... This time last week (3:59 PM, when I started this post) I was on my final stretch to White Salmon, Washington. The evening of the 20th I was in com...

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Sabbatical
Just a little while ago I pulled the trigger on deactivating my Facebook account.  Not sure for how long.  I just find myself getting lost in Facebook for hours at a time.  I'm fairly sure that it's nearly entirely due to finding ways to distract myself fro...

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Hindsight.
I chose my favorite form today.  That of a young girl, probably about 7 years old.  Long, dark hair, thick fringe in the front, and large, doe eyes.  These weren't real, per se, but visuals I chose for the space between here and there. I gazed down with my ...

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The Desires of Your Heart
I've been trying to sort out the desires of my heart. I was raised to believe that God hears them. I've reached a time where I question if there is even a God out there to listen. I've tried turning it off. I've tried focusing on the benefits of not having ...
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