Getting back on your feet
I've been taking my distances from G+ recently. Totally cut off. Not checking anyone's activity.
I've been consolidating myself at home, outside, at the local pool. Trying to get back to something. Doing what I've been wanting/needing to do for the past two years. Sorting things out. Reading more than what I've done in the last year.
Yes, I've lost my job. No, this doesn't mean I'm desperate. Nor in the need to immediately get back to something. I want to do great things. I want passion in my work. If I need 3 or 6 or 9 months to find people interested in really working with me (not barely using me as a "human ressource"), I'll take them.
In the meantime, I'm trying things out. Learning. Watching TED talks. One of them led me to find something "that makes my day", everyday. No exception. Should I share it publicly? Don't know if others would find it interesting. Or if I did, should I be explaining the why? Or would finding meaning by yourself be enough?
I can't be as wordy as +Youssef Hachhouch
when explaining my personality or why or how and such.
I've decided to get to know myself by trying new things out.
I did paintball this weekend. Something I never did before. I exhausted myself completely. Running, hiding, shooting my friends (in the most civil ways, of course :)). I wasn't someone anymore, I was something. Ok and I was also a very bad shooter, accuracy around 5% but who cared? The sun was shining, the protections I wore were ugly but comfy, the mask made me hear my breathing so loudly I could barely think something more elaborate than "where in the name of heck did this one come from?".
This is a happy time. This was a perfect day. And if yesterday my whole body was aching, it was totally worth it.
Come on, bring it on. I'm ready :)