male enlightenment !))) Tree Of life enlightenment: as a child growing up, the emotions I had were mostly effeminate, Whenever the boyhood, effeminate part of myself appeared, My Father and People around me, would shame me, they would tell me to, quit acting like a little girl and be a man, many times it made me cry, I was so scared of showing that side of myself, and afraid to let them see, that they were hurting me. Finally there shaming became so unbearable that i would hide my tears, as i became afraid to show anything they percieved to be weekness, I was just a kid and they scared me, I also hid it from others, they just never did understand, I had come to the conclusion, that these things they did, had been done to them, when they were young, they were so cruel, pressuring, me to be something, I wasn’t ready or supposed to be, at that time,? Boyhood is so short, and such a important time of life ! as I grew older the testosterone, soon came into my body, naturally carrying me in a 360 degree direction, and into the confident, strong, meek man, that, I am today, I came to a point, where I had to quit trying to live life and let life, start living me, by letting go, I Immediately Forgave all involved, and by forgiving them I forgave myself for beleiveing them! I would no longer be ashamed of myself and the awkward part of becoming a man that goes along with it! I became aware, that I was exactly like, god intended me to be, on everyday of my life!