**Weird: I posted this story as a comment on this Youtube video of me. But when I log out, my comment is invisible. That's special, Youtube. Still wanted to share the story for context on the video.**
There's a secret about this video that I think I can finally share now, years later:
I was completely derailed. I failed utterly to follow my notes or make my point. This talk was not AT ALL my carefully rehearsed TEDx talk, and I wound up very nearly making the opposite of my point as I stumbled to the end. I felt it was a disaster and I still do. Let me explain why:
About this time, I decided to take my personal life seriously and practice Dating, at which I was totally inept. With the help of OKCupid I resolved to go on 10 dates with 10 strangers within a six-week period, all in low pressure venues and low expectations. I felt empowered and met great people. It was a very good idea, I recommend it.
Trouble is, I obviously match up with a certain kind of person -- my ideal partner demographic never misses their local TEDx talks.
Because when I got up to speak, I saw that FIVE OF TEN boys I had gone on dates with were staring up at me from the theater seats.
I knew some of them were hoping for another date. Some I hoped would soon forget what an idiot I was. And one was obviously there on purpose to see me again, and I wished he were not there.
They made up nearly a quarter of the audience.
Which is why I utterly failed to deliver this TEDx talk.
And I'll let you imagine the awkwardness of trying to greet them all afterwards on a five-minute break (they didn't know each other).
Dignity dead. But it makes a funny story in retrospect. So if you want to see me do a halfway decent talk, here's my Ignite speech, much more coherent and exactly what I had practiced: "The Art and Science of Songwriting" "The Art and Science of Songwriting" - Marian Call
- Marian Call