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Perri McCary
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What Matters to the Heart ...

I have written about the heart a lot over the years. I am mostly an optimist. We're better than we show to each other. However, I am a realist. I know that many of us aren't willing to do the work necessary to make kindness and compassion a habit rather than something we have to think about depending on the person in front of us.

My kindness and compassion are rooted in my defiance. I want to be better than that. I want to know that no matter who you are, I can still offer this. I also know that TRUTH is not always kind, especially when there are those who don't want to hear it or acknowledge it. I've been talked about. To my face, even. But, this year the talk about me has been something that would have given me pause if, after 65 years, I didn't know who I am. I am not perfect. I don't even strive to be. I'm a flawed individual who tries to do better each and every day, but I don't hold myself to impossible standards. I know how angry I can get, and I know when I've reached my limits. I raise my voice. Sometimes, when I'm really angry, I stand up and unfurl my full 6 feet plus. I always look the person in the eye, but even at my angriest, I have a mantra that begins slow and steady inside my head, traveling straight to my heart --- this is still a human being. When.I can't do that, I know I have to walk away, but so far ... so good.

In one week, I will be landing in Belize for a much needed sabbatical. My work is to review my body of work, catalogue/record it, put my notes and thoughts together on it, and come back knowing what I will be doing the rest of my life. I always thought I could do this at home surrounded by family and friends, but I need a break, some downtime in order to review and analyze. Self-reflection can only be done without interruption.

First, I want to thank Nikala Asante for offering me this opportunity, but I owe this transition to the love and support of my children. Once, I didn't feel capable of handling my grief and anger ... my children were young, but it had to do with being affected by what others said. It turned out to be the best thing that I came to that point early in their lives because I realized I didn't have time for that. My children deserved better and I spent the rest of their young lives committed to them. Not one regret. But that moment of weakness was actually a moment of strength, understanding that I had to find resources and my own moral compass. I had to strengthen my faith with prayer and thanksgiving. I was in my right mind after all and I learned to walk in my truth and have been since then.

So, this last week will be spent building the last stage of my life. I want to discard what I don't need, and find comfort in knowing that I'm still living a most blessed life. I have no regrets. Each step has taken me to some incredible places, working with some incredible people, and living an authentic life. I know who I am, but now I'll know what I will be doing.

So wish me strong winds with stars that guide at night. And when I return, know that I'm still who I was, just a little more settled and focused. ~ Peace.
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A holiday perspective.
Being Thankful, Taking a Stand
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Finding answers through love and respect, trust and honesty.
Trains. A Journey to Understanding
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Speaking truth to power.
The Sad Truth About Pacifica Foundation
The Sad Truth About Pacifica Foundation
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The launching of BOOKCOVER: Book Reviews for the 21st Century. Have a book you think I should read? Here's the place to send me the name and author. I'll do the rest. One caveat, however. Books must bring inspiration and teachings that resonate for peace and justice.
The Past Awaits Us
The Past Awaits Us
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Announcement from the Wacky Peacemaker.
Judging a Book by It's Cover ...
Judging a Book by It's Cover ...
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It is not a lie if you believe it. YES, it IS.
Matt Gertz
Matt Gertz
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Perri McCary commented on a post on Blogger.
Fifty years and we're still having this SAME conversation, in the same way. People were lynched who wore ties and dresses, had condiments poured over their heads as they sat peacefully, and took it. This is a new generation and a new day. Colin represents that new day and his statement makes YOU uncomfortable, Drew. Well, we didn't come here to comfort the comfortable. We came to create comfort for the oppressed and the bonus is getting you to feel uncomfortable. Sad thing, however, is that you haven't learned anything and are not willing to even try. So, Drew, get over yourself, because what this says to me is that your parents and parent's parents did not teach you TRUTH but the right to PRIVILEGE. Sorry, no pass!
Fuck Yo Flag Drew Brees
Fuck Yo Flag Drew Brees
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