Wow, review last days, what have I done to push up my passion and my career? Nothing, right, nothing.There are many things coming to me, I am too sensitive to get over. 1. My family: My parents are in a heavy debt. I myself know that they can not pay all till their whole life except for selling our own land. They feel very tired. I can see many wrinkles on their foreheads. +My mother: She works hard for her whole life without any things. Her friends keep away from her cuz they think she will borrow some money or need their helps. My mom is not rich, she gave her job as a teacher up to become a vegetable seller who wakes up at 1:30 am daily and go to the market to begin a new day. She always says sorry to us as she could not provide us a good motorbike, the best laptop or precious things and she cries all night for them. How lucky we are to be born in this family. We are really proud of my mother. We are doing our best to study and work to make her pleased. After our last robbery, she looks older than her age. She is thinking of how to earn much money to pay money back to the banks and her friends, relatives also. +My father: He is a really talented guy. He knows many things but he could not run a true business by himself. All his plans are run out of due to internal and external factors. Then, he feels to be a sponger, I could see his tears at night. I remember sometimes at nights, he cried, cried for not supporting his children, cried for his wife, cried for his failure. He have got cerebral vascular accident disease more than 2 years ago. He is trying to drink much alcohol and smoke as much as possible because he wants to die soon. He does not want to be a burden for us. He chose lottery to hope that he can get money to pay loans and give us but he spent all without taking back, even he got a big, very big loans instead. Adding to his unluckiness with last robbery, he lost all his saving.+My eldest brother: He could not study well at high school and having an average-income one. Last two year, he made his girlfriend pregnant and he decided to get married with her even my father is in a bad sick. He moved to his wife's house and started a bad life. He wants to come back my hometown working for easy care our parents but his wife does not agree. She even does not make a call to my parents to talk with them for a while. My parents are really so sad. My brother used to tell me he would divorce her if she would not come back with him but my mother does not allow it to happen since he has a son to bring up.+My youngest sister: She is a good girl.She is a freshman at International Finance Faculty in a Foreign Trade University. She is taking a part time job at Coffee Bean and usually comes home so late. She just sleeps only 4 hours a day. I love her to much+My next younger brother: He is the senior student at Software Programming Department in Science University. He does not take any part time job and studies all day. He hopes to get a good job with his high degree and I respect it. He is really economical at spending. When his friends invite him for out going, he always he denies to save money. All payments are based on my salary. He knows that and he will only has girlfriend, goes out when he starts working.+Finally, I myself: I studied well at high school and at college. Actually, at college, it could not compared with the period at high school. After graduation, I worked for a forwarder at Logistic then moved to a shipping line. However, my salary is not good. I know many new staff who are not as good as I am but they get higher salary than mine. I just think one day, my effort will be compensated well. This is only a base and a small challenge I need to get over. Even I do my best, I am often get bad luck. Sometimes I cry for this one but I will be good one day, hahah.
Totally writing down makes me better.