I am so terribly sorry for your loss Becky. Just know your father will never totally be gone. His memory and love live on in you and holli. You will have memories pop in your head frequently with the tiniest of trigger. It is ok to grieve and it is ok to ask for support never forget that This will be a long journey for you and holli but know we are all here for you to support and love you. One day at a time friend..