I LOVE MY SELF
Sometimes things have to fall apart for other things to fall into place. I know.. IN TIME.
I don’t know what to feel, or what to think. I suddenly felt numb. I felt like I can do this by myself. Things have been rough lately but that doesn’t mean I’ll give up that easily.
One day, I’ll be able to love deeply, the head-over-heels in love kind of thing. I guess I don’t really give my all in a relationship because I am afraid that I might get hurt once again. I am scared of losing someone that I truly love. I am scared that he will replace me. I am scared that he might get tired of me. I don’t even know why I feel like this, I feel weird for not giving my 100%.
Trauma. The damage inside me wasn’t really healed after all. I thought everything was okay, that there are no worries left. But the anguish within says that I still can’t.
I learned to love myself more than I love someone else. Is it a good or a bad thing?