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Stephanie Shock
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Living and loving this crazy life
Living and loving this crazy life

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Regret
It's been five weeks and a day since Bethany was born. I've been thinking a lot over the past few days about her, the pain I'm going through, and whether I would do it all over again. Bethany was a big surprise. We weren't intending to try for more babies, ...
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Why does God let bad things happen?
I have very little to add to Father Mike's wise and moving words. So I will just share his knowledgeable explanation. Short answer, we have free will, and he honors that. God did not even will that Jesus die. That was not part of his perfect will, but he us...
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One week
One week ago we were on our way to the hospital, preparing for Bethany's arrival via c-section. After the initial anxiety of the the first few hours pre-op, the day flew by. Those first few hours felt like minutes. I remember looking at the clock around 3 a...
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Goodbye for now, again
Am I really here again? Hugging another baby for the last time in this life, trying desperately to remember the feel of her body in my arms, so I can relive that sensation when my arms physically ache to feel her? Watching my daughter cry for missing the si...
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Beautiful miss Bethany Hope made her appearance on Wednesday, August 3, at 11:14am. She let out the sweetest, although brief, cry when she was born. Our priest was so generous with his time, arriving early to pray with us and staying through the delivery an...
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Scheduled birthdate
Bethany is due to make her appearance on Wednesday morning. We met with the doctors and midwife yesterday, and after much discussion and many tears, we decided to have a c-section rather than go for a natural birth. There were many factors - her head and ab...
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On suffering, and a brief update
Sacrifice has been on my mind this entire pregnancy. Why are we being asked to bare and give up yet another child? How do I find the value in this sacrifice, this giving up of self? More than a few times I have found myself feeling bitter or frustrated, wit...
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It's a girl! And the genetic test results.
It's a girl! I don't always trust my intuition, but I had a really strong feeling that this baby was a girl. I feel like God named this baby. From early on in the pregnancy, I knew she was a Bethany. It's not a name that has ever been on one of my baby name...
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Going down this road again
It's been quite a while I've written. I would like to make this a more regular thing, since writing is so cathartic for me. It's been almost 2 years since we lost Molly. I can't believe it's been so long, and even more so, I can't believe we are here yet ag...
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