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Nikki Adams (EVILFLU)
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The Battle...
On the frontline.  The soldiers are in order. I'm pretty sure Jon Snow is there. It is a battle... and it's all in my head. It's a battle of Never being good enough. Never being smart enough. Feeling like a nuisance to people. Enhancing my flaws. Being dece...
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Settled.
Hello dear blog reader(s).  It's been a while.  The truth is I was feeling a little overwhelmed. I find writing very soothing.  Sharing my experiences with strangers makes me feel less alone. Blogging has always been a cry for help that I hope nobody answer...
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Always the Victim...
I am so stubborn.  Sometimes that's not such a bad quality to have. I stand my ground. I am loyal. but sometimes being stubborn holds me back. I know this situation is wrong. It's just so wrong. ...but my heart wants me to fight. I'm tired . I'm spiraling. ...
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Road Rage Queen of York Street...
I have no patience for bad drivers. I'm not saying I'm the best driver ever, but I make safe choices when I drive. I just finished a year of an auto merit program with my insurance company and I am now saving 5% off my car insurance.  Good(ish) driver. Ever...
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Dreaming...
I woke up sobbing. I had one of those dreams where you are in another reality. It was a horrible dream where my mother died.  I felt like I was completely lost. Honestly, I don't see or talk to my family very much. I'm working on it. My anxiety makes me fee...
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When There is an "I" in Your Team...
I love being a part of a team. Mostly because I am a major follower.  I am inspired by leadership roles, but I'm too apprehensive to be a leader. I've known this ever since I was excluded from those leadership field trips they had in school. You know what, ...
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Wild...
My heart doesn't know what it wants. or maybe that's just your heart. You make something so beautiful and simple seem so disgusting. I just want to be content (again). You make me feel wild yet barren. I have immeasurable worth. I am strong. I am not alone....
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Family Day 2016...
After a very strange/snowy/emotional weekend (in which I got questioned for murder), I decided we had to celebrate Family Day this year.  Usually Family Day is just an extra day to veg out and binge on Netflix (OMG do you watch Wentworth??) - usually in sep...
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Moment of Weakness...
It was just a moment of weakness. A bad decision. It was over. I won. and suddenly I wasn't winning anymore. When you have a moment of weakness the best people in your life will put your face in a mountain. with clouds. and hot air balloons. Those are the p...
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That's me in the corner...
I guess I've never really been the life of the party. I attempted it a time or two. The night usually ended with too much to drink, smeared makeup and accessories that made me look like a Kindergarten classroom Christmas tree. It was awkward and weird. Good...
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