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Colin Andersson
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Attended Albury High, NSW, Australia
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HOPE...I CAN'T FIND IT
Every time I feel down the same thing comes up: I have no hope. Yes, I k now how lucky I am to have a husband who adores me and takes care of me. 35 yrs this coming July. I get to listen to music every day on the best equipment, can watch what I like on a 4...
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I am pretty good at lving a day at a time so I don't think about getting worse. As regards my physical neor and bone disease, they will get worse. That is is just fact.  I have just never had to deal with a lack of hope before. Thank you for caring enough to share. xo Colin
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HOW IT WAS...OR HOW IT WASN'T
If you are an adult and I came up to you and slapped you or punched you or kicked you or tried to throttle you, you would know that I did and take appropriate action. No matter what I said, you'd never think for one second that I had not done this to you.

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This has become very confusing. I have no idea why people cannot leave comments on my blog(the Blogger one) as they did before. I think Google forced me over to thids but I don't know what this is. I left messages on your Jamiacan trip. I am so sorry you feel ignored. I would never do that. Responses DO get to me from my Wordpress blog: www.knitmanskitchen.wordpress.com

I hope this response gets to you. I have responded before, or tried to, until I hit on the idea of leaving cooemments on your blog but you appear not to have those either. The 'net can be a real pain.

I wantg you to be sure I would never ignore you.
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SCIENCE SHOWS THAT CHILD ABUSE CAUSES PERMANENT DAMAGE
This is not popular. There are grades of abuse. However, when I listen to people, if they know mine, they often say 'but compared to yours it was nothing' and I tell them that pain is pain. It hurts. Abuse causes damage.

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THERE WERE GOOD TIMES TOO
I was talking yesterday to John about the way that I think about my past. It came about because I learned that  human beings tend to remember the bad things more clearly than they do the good things. I also felt that in some way I was betraying the abused m...
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A DREAM IN TWO PARTS
I decided I need to talk to someone as I don't seem able to see past this brick wall. I have made two appointments with two different people and am waiting upon a third to contact me.

I felt better upon waking.

I had the weirdest dream. Weird in that it w...
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Thank you kindly, Dan. I am like you physically tho maybe for different reasons. I really miss not being able to walk the dogs. But ye, fake it till you it, is a good motto and one I have used to get me through. I have just never been in this lack of hope situation before. Oh, actually, yes I have when I was 18ish. I was given hope then by a Greek lady shrink who told me my family were wicked and I was very damaged by that but I COULD recover if I believed it and worked for it. She was right. It also occurs to me that this period where I have nothing to do but listen to music and watch films, both I love, is an opportunity to work on getting rid of the guilt of doing 'nothing' and just enjoying myself.
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Thank for the support, Dan. I needed to hear from someone else other than myself. I am going to practise talking about all of the good things without allowing the bad memories to overwhelm me and the good memories. 
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HI-does anyone read this blog anymore? It seems to they don't as there are no comments, or rarely. I have been feeling guilty a long time for not having kept it up as I did. Partly it's has been my illness and partly the immediacy of Facebook. I also think ...
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