The moment when you're finally happy everything seems to begin to slip. Everyone and everything you loved slowly leaving you, yet you have to stay strong. You can't let them know you're dying inside. You can't cause them the same pain. Instead you fake a smile, act like it's all ok. But in reality, your being ripped apart from the inside out, screaming for someone to help you, but there is no one to save you. No one to hear your screams. They all think you are happy being all alone in the cold dark world. But that's cause they can't see the real you. You won't let them.... You know it's wrong to lie to the ones you love but it's hard to tell them the truth. You don't want them to pity. All you want is them to love you for who you are. But how can someone love someone who keeps everything hidden from the world? Someone who just says it's ok when really it's not? Or maybe you were meant to be alone. Maybe all this time you never meant a thing to anyone else. If you just slit your wrists and die no one would notice, would they? All these thoughts in your head makes it were you can't eat or sleep at night. All you do is cry, wondering what you did wrong. Why everybody in your life just leaves... Yet each and every day you get up and fake that same old smile you've been fooling everyone with. The same old "I'm fine" is starting g to sound true. Maybe it's because it's all you have to Give. The numbness feels so good to you now, and the darkness is your new home. This is who you are, until you draw your last breath .