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Brandon Pausa
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Active and involved in long term recovery. Anyone that can turn life around for the better is interesting in my eyes.
Active and involved in long term recovery. Anyone that can turn life around for the better is interesting in my eyes.

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I fear several feelings.  Some of which are guilt, shame, remorse, self pity, denial and regret.  I also fear, fear itself....  I guess that is it for now.  I have to wrap this up for the 10 PM meeting in Reno. 
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Kittens, puppy's, and baby's all get a lot of attention.  Then you grow up... 
Family
Family
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I find some feelings unacceptable today.  Self pity is agonizing.  I just cant do that.  That type of thinking is in the past. 
The Compulsive Mind
The Compulsive Mind
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With the help of God, Kindly pull my head from my own ass!

So..  What was your first 30 days like?
30 Days
30 Days
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I prefer to be honest. I have no need to impress.
Depression and Anxiety.
Depression and Anxiety.
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The longer I am involved in recovery the more I realize that I need to be my best self. If I compromise and question what it is that I am capable of, I fall short every time.. doubt… It’s rather a simple idea. I used to say things like, “I am not a…
Making things our own.
Making things our own.
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I have been asking myself one question lately. What happened to me? I used to be freaking awesome. I mean at one point in life I had brass balls! I used to lie and cheat. I never agreed with stealing though. I feel if you want something in this world you…
Change
Change
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If your involved in recovery, you may believe you neatly avoided this topic. I guess some people can do it alone. I know I can never could do it alone. My Ex girlfriend was very self made. But a very good person. She always got upset about my money…
God
God
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After 5 years of recovery, I know that I’m more accepting then I used to be. But, I have to address a judgement I have. My peeve is, this idea going around that you somehow overcome all forms of judgement whatsoever. Yeah, I know some people think they…
Judgement or acceptance.
Judgement or acceptance.
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This was in my mind when I work up at 1pm today. The thought comes from the movie anger management with Adam Sandler and jack Nicholson. Adam Sandler is one of these guys that likes to repress anger. Jack is a psychologist and he starts to take control of…
I feel pretty.
I feel pretty.
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