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good news and horrible news. the cancer isnt widespread, so optimistic chance of a cure. the ostomy, however, is permanent. it is a downgrade in my quality of life and this life has already been so lacking in comfort, pleasure or satisfaction that this is causing an existential dilemma for me.
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+miri dunn thank you. I do dislike platitudes. 
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still waiting for specialists for chemo and radiation, but they have now scanned me with every imaging tech currently in use.  I got a root canal on Wednesday and it's infected today, so I'm o antibiotics.  The dentist got very serious with me, told me to call his cell phone while on the way to ER if the infection progressed or failed to regress in 48 hours. The doctor set me up with good meds for the belly pain and now there's this toothache...  I had to drive myself today.  The person who promised to be a ride for me flaked out on me.  That's frustrating.  Two, just two people out there to help relieve Dan, and they're both unreliable. ~sigh~ I got there and back without incident, but I am not fit to drive, I really am not.  What's more, the activity level really beats me up. 
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+ann kiszt  Good things, then .  
                     Keeping  each other........              
                                : -)
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So much to post. .. captions will be in comments
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Thanks +Don Thompson !  Timmy is a good sickbed companion!
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if mine have to go I wont shed a tear. I will rejoice in finally being able to legally remove my shirt on a hot day like a man may do. I will rejoice in being less defineable as a sex object and therefor more as a person.
 
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In May 2016, Paulette Leaphart will begin the long walk from Biloxi, Mississippi, to Washington, D.C., in the name of breast cancer awareness. After being diagnosed in 2014, Leaphart underwent a double mastectomy without the option of reconstructive surgery. The end of Leaphart’s walk will coincide with her 50th birthday. “Somebody's going to pay attention when they see a black lady walking down the highway across the country with no shirt on,” s...
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+ann kiszt - I'm sure it will look amazing.
I like the infinity concept.

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avoid this common attitude:  "I'm normal.  Therefor everyone else can do like me and succeed at what I succeed at. If you can't, it's your fault, you aren't trying hard enough. I try hard, so I know you have to try, and so if you can't do like me, you aren't trying." You're wrong if you think this about anyone.
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 In general, I completely agree w/ this point on post.

Various circumstances for each  are VAST in nature , (& personal or lack there of effort can also play its part)
 But when opportunities/resources/ facts regarding are often   'a given'  for one, they aren't necessarily available or even existing to another....  
  #Oddly ,MyLifeStoryInSomeNutshell   : -)
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Ok, I haven't kept g+ up on my life.  It's not my idea of what g+ is for, but some of you out there really appreciate knowing I think.  I got hospitalized rather suddenly wednesday when my oncologist got a look at my files.  He rushed me in for a cat scan followed by surgery to install a colostomy bag.  what that is, is a bypass for your guts when they're blocked too much to work. So it's like having a little outhouse on your waist and you have to clean it out by yourself. No more pooping.  The time in hospital was a terrible endurance.  The place was filthy by my standards. The people overworked and sometimes irritable.  The food utterly inedible.  Even for a normal person used to chewing on second rate commercial food it would have been a trial. For me it was horrid. I had some brought in but without a fridge or kitchen it wasn't much I could keep to hand. I worked hard to feed myself. I hurt, yes, and enough that sometimes it was about all I knew, but really no worse than any other illness pain.  I hated the pain killers so tried to avoid them. They kept me from sleeping more than three hours at a time with their disturbances.  At night it was blood pressure readings, in the day deliberately keeping me tired so I'd not be up at night. They sent me home early and that's good because I got even thinner in there. I'm thinner than I've been ever in my life. I like the thinness for feeling comfortable, but recognize it makes me weak and at risk.  So I'm home and working up to proper meals.  My stomach and whole system was already shut down before I got in and the surgery made it worse, so eating is a slow frequent small sized process. From my reading, the chemo and radiation won't make me as sick as I've already been from the long time being unable to eat properly so even with that, and surgery ahead of me, I should get better over time. I've found help via facebook with household needs and other things and my husband is being an amazing human now, helping me. I know now, too, that "be strong" really means "quit being so damn nice and force people to be nice to you."  I discovered that being undemanding in hospital equalled extra neglect, so I guess, the nicer you are, the less you get? It breaks my heart but it makes some sense if you consider life a series of assessments of where you're needed most.  The demanding people seem to need more. They don't, but they make it seem so. I won't become one, but I won't take no for an answer so readily again. Never again.  I will say "hey, I'll not be minimized and dismissed again, that's how I got cancer and it nearly killed me, so get on it and take me seriously!"  I guess that's what "be strong" really means, huh? Because when you're sick, just deciding you can stand it and won't die is nonsense. You are not in control of those things.
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When I was 7, I was in a group home for 'handicapped' children.
I was able bodied, so I was taught how to change a 'stoma bag' on the kids who were younger than I.

I kicked my cancer out the door in 2011.


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"are you a good witch, or a bad witch?" "depends on my mood."
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I like this idea very much.  I must think of what to send?
 
A word of encouragement ... Pass it on
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They feel hopeless. There isn't enough fresh food the town is in terrible shape. The legacy of attempted genocide creates too much poverty, illness and addiction. There seems no future or way out. They do speak English but as a second language.
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A dream gave me a moral lesson to share. Imagine you are a poor person with a small supply of bread loaves in your cupboard on which to live. A hungry person at your door tugs your heart strings. You want to feed him. You don't want to give up any food but you decide you will because you feel the compassion. So you turn to your store to choose a loaf. Just then, a mouse walks across one loaf. You're a fussy person, you'll never eat that loaf now it's had mouse on it. So you select that loaf to give away as you wouldn't have had it anymore anyway. Smug and satisfied and filled with your own generosity, you give the bread to the hungry man. He is thankful and praises you. 
You gave him something that wasn't good enough for you. Are you the good person you and he think you are? You disrespected him. Even though you know it's fine, he's happy, you're happy, you put him beneath you by giving food that isn't good enough for you.
This isn't so much a question to be answered, but a thought on which to chew. is it generous to give your castoffs?
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Throw out the spoiled food but invite them to dinner then.
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Incredible range of almost cool abilities, mostly mediocre. I cook some fantastic dishes, and my home is nice and clean most of the time. I can do almost anything if I see how it's done, but I'm lousy at math and have no human interaction module, so my main brain has to fumble through it by rote.
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I've grown up to live independantly and acquire a college degree in spite of my autism and the utter lack of appropriate treatment thereof. I'm proud of my home and my garden and the health of those I caretake in this demesnes. I believe in a God, but it's complicated and you'd have to understand the 4th dimension to get it.
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Yoli of Nirvana on animal crossing, New leaf dream address 5400 2336 6628, 3ds friend code 5386 7451 4850, Yolanda to folks who meet me., anarkissed or Yoli on Tomodachi life, TDL: H311rh3v3n: 577-147 Orange Isles, Grapes ocean