Seems like all that's left to do is to roll over and die!!! Then you see that special someone and all you want to do is to live for them... You're messed up,,, that's what you are!!! think straight!!! get your head back on your body!!! lolol!!!!
In life you can't wait hoping that everything will be perfect, the reality is that there will be obstacles and difficult times, that matter and are important! Start now, with each step you take you will gain strength, each time you you're stressed you'll become more confident with yourself, and success will follow!!!