Anyway... It wasn't until I was in my 30's that I truly understood what generated so much strife in junior high, high school and even in college and how little control I had over myself. I was spending my entire adolescent life with un-diagnosed ADD and anxiety disorder and as a result, didn't really know how to be a person. Obviously kids are going to poke at that. But it was one friend who leaned over after a particularly brutal moment found me trying very hard not to cry at the end of the lunch table, embarassed and shamed in full view of everyone I thought were my friends. My friend Lalena said to me "none of us are good enough for you. Even your (precious crush). We all laughed at you, not with you, but at you, and for that, we aren't worthy of you. I'm truly sorry that I laughed, and I hope you will forgive me"
Something about what you said stirred me... made me realize that being the butt of the joke when I'm okay with it is called being funny. Knowing what you did was absurd and being able to laugh at your own akwardness makes it less crushing somehow. That ownership of it changed me. I didn't realize just how much until my late 20's/early 30's when I truly understood my own personal nature. It also took the power away from the bullies. They couldn't make fun of me anymore... I was in on the joke, and for them, it wasn't funny anymore.
I found my way thru by learning to be funny and catch them off guard. It shaped who I was until therapy helped me see what was going on in my life and how to grow from it. This video reminded me of all that and suddenly I find myself rambling in comments.
TLDR: This video touched me and sparked a ton of memories. Well done good sir.
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