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lorin michaels
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Look Around and Remember
Another year of holidays come and go... another cycle of grief lingering.  The holidays are never easy - always the stress to not feel alone, the pressure to jump in there with everyone, celebrate the occasions and friends and family around me and be happy ...

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THIRD ANNIVERSARY
Three years. It's not the monumental first that is commemorated by the unveiling or a "you made it through the year of firsts." It's not the second that is the one past the first and people still remember to check on you. It's not the mile marker fifth or t...

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LOSSES
LOVE comes and goes... We risk, we experience, we love, we lose, we mourn.  Different levels of loss generate different levels of mourning.. the end of a phase of life, the end of a friendship, the end of a life, the end of a relationship.  We mourn. And ye...

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Second Anniversary
Today marks the second anniversary.  I still remember this day like it was yesterday.  I am ever so grateful that Eddie did not have the long hospice care, the pain that some endure with cancer or the embarrassing episodes with his care providers. I struggl...

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Another feeling he was with me
I recently went on a fishing trip, one that Eddie took many times with our temple.  He loved this trip and as much as he could, never missed it.  As we flew to Idaho, I put on my headphones and scrambled my music.  I fell asleep.  As we landed, I woke up an...

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Remembering Birthdays
For sure this is an awkward one.  How do you "celebrate" someone's birthday that is no longer alive? I guess it really is just taking a moment to remember him.  But then I remember and talk about him every day. Last year, one of Eddie's dear friends sent me...

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Life is Sweet, Life is Bittersweet
They say life goes on, you find happiness again, you find love again.  Perhaps.  Yes.  True. Then you are jolted.  Someone says that something that just hits you in the heart.  It immediately takes you back to "but I don't have my spouse."  Or perhaps your ...

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ASK ME
Even almost two years out.... I ask that you ask me. Ask me what I need.  Ask me if it is easier to talk about Eddie, the day he died, our special moments, our trips, our funny moments, our sad moments and our tough moments.  They are part of my life and th...

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Signs Still Came
This happened awhile ago but I see I never posted it. I was in my grief group.  The group leaders asked us to go around the room and say something we would say to our spouse if they could hear us.  I said "I ask Eddie to please keep showing up to let me kno...

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Everywhere you go… There you Are
Today marks the 8th anniversary of Eddie's original seizure and diagnosis.  The day my life forever changed, the future much more uncertain than it was the day I married Eddie just 2 1/2 years prior.  And 2 days ago marked 1 1/2 years since he died. It is t...
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