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Patricia Milland
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I am passionate about spirituality, meditation, healthy eating, alternative health care, learning and self-awareness, and helping others who want to be helped. Setting goals and learning to be free of an attachment to the outcome is one of my most productive life lessons.
I am passionate about spirituality, meditation, healthy eating, alternative health care, learning and self-awareness, and helping others who want to be helped. Setting goals and learning to be free of an attachment to the outcome is one of my most productive life lessons.

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Excellent book!
Like cleaning the kitchen sink, personal evolution is an ongoing process. It is part of your life not to be confused with living your life! Be living proof of your achievements!
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Great book! You'll learn stuff you never knew about chakras.
Fine tuning your beliefs and values allows you to be more strategic in your interactions. Freeing yourself from internal conflicts makes it much easier to express from love.
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Loved and continue to love this book.
Want to learn how to resolve the conflicts within yourself so that you can create a life that fulfills you?
https://goo.gl/zazfie

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Chaos to Calm~~~

My sister just reminded me via a FB post (she's really good at remembering dates. Me? Not so much) that it is 18 years ago today that Mom passed. I was blessed to be with her to help release and let go thanks to an affirmation from Louise Hay's 'You Can Heal Your Life' book.

Mom and I had a chaotic relationship in many ways. Sadly, we weren't as close as my sister and she were. It wasn't for lack of trying in spite of what others thought. Regardless, I had great respect for her in spite of my pain. It's a book in itself that maybe I will write one day. Not today.

It took a few years after she passed through counseling, journaling, and meditation that I finally found peace - found a place of acceptance, and total understanding about who she was and why. We couldn't have a mother more dedicated to doing whatever it took to ensure we were taken care of. She was a genius in finding ways to survive a very challenging relationship with my alcoholic Dad, having 5 children in 6 years, raising 5 children pretty much on her own, losing a child at 3 weeks old within days of moving homes, huge financial insecurity, and how she could stretch a dollar in the worst of times was pure genius - or survival - and yet to the world a smile you could not resist. She was a doer. She was an organizer. She was a great friend. Her smile would light up a room as you can see below. Thanks, Roberta, for the reminder and repost of her.
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Chaos to Calm~~~
3 days without posting. 3 days of I'm too busy. 3 days of worrying about my health. And what is that doing for me?! It's simply a waste of time and emotional energy. Frankly, I think the sugar and wheat are getting to me so I've eliminated those of as today and already feel better. I'm going to see the doctor anyway, just to be cautious...which is saying something because I don't do the doctor route as my norm. Since having surgery for breast cancer last January I have to fight hard to avoid being scared that something else may happen - and I'll be damned if I want to manifest that!

On the upside (because I really hate calling myself wrong!), I meditated and journaled each day. I spent 3 days creating my 2018 vision board finishing it just before midnight on NYE. This is my first one with clear intentions. I created a lovely NYE meal for hubby and I and enjoyed watching some cool stuff on the telly; making another special meal for my son who was visiting for about 40 hours; I did journal and meditate, and - that's about it (that I'll share anyway :) ).

One major shift I am going to change this year (or month!) is my need for validation from my children - or from anyone for that matter. It doesn't serve me...looking for acceptance and approval from others. Don't get me wrong - they are very nice to receive - it's the needing piece I want to be free of. So, more journaling. More meditation. I know this for sure - this is how I find my inner peace, my inner calm. What do you do?

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Chaos to Calm~~~ Maybe...

This has hit right between my eyes, into my heart, and a wack to my ego! This is a lesson that has been coming to me in stages, in pieces this past year. I've heard the lesson many times over the years - from many people - some who sarcastically would say 'yes, Mother', or 'I don't need a mother' - or those who would blatantly tell me to stop! And yet, I would continue on... every day, looking for any opportunity I could to 'help' others.

Do I love to help? Yes, absolutely. But deep down, is it about helping or is it about being heard...being seen? And I can tell you, truly - that is what it has been about. It's been about being validated because of my own lack of self-esteem, self-love.

This past year the diagnosis of breast cancer has been a wake-up call in more ways than one. The good news is it was caught very early and I am fine. The good news is more about how much I am learning about myself - and about learning ever so slowly - unconditional love for myself.

I'm crying. I'm crying because everything I've ever said or done was always with the best intention. I have been blessed with knowing some wonderful people who have accepted me as I am and love me anyway. I'm crying because it's time for me to love myself as much - with all the acceptance and approval I so hope I give others.

I wear hearing aids. I love and hate them. I know the loss of hearing is about being heard...which is why I offer so much advice in the name of caring (I really do) and wondering why most people, particularly those dear to me, don't hear me, don't act on my 'wisdom' or care to ask. It's also about hearing - hearing others, truly listening to them and simply being there for them. I know this comes from childhood where I felt invisible and definitely not heard. And it's about hearing my inner wisdom that I have so often ignored, hearing my soul that who and what I am really is right all the time.

I have been working with a business coach with the intention of finally and seriously start a business doing...drums please!...coaching, mentoring, helping others help themselves. Is this from ego? Do I truly believe there are people prepared to exchange energy (pay) for what I have to offer? To do what I've been doing for a lifetime but now from a place that who and what I am has value? My challenge is not that they will or won't, but that I believe that I do have value and to let go of the fear that I don't.

Now - I'm going to work on my vision board - my first serious one. It'll be interesting what I end up with. Follow through has been my challenge - I want to find a sign or symbol that depicts 'I followed through!' If you know of one, please let me know.

May you have a blessed, fulfilling, and joyful 2018!

Pat

Chaos to Calm~~~
I took a few days off - Christmas and all. I'm a bit of a rebel and not very good at 'should's. :)

Some of what I haven't been doing is my usual 'take care of me' routine and it's beginning to make its mark. Not journaling or meditating.

Is there a pattern here I've missed? How's this working for me?! As a result, I'm feeling underwhelmed. Little motivation. Tired regardless of lots of sleep. (It's the sugar! :( )

It seems sometimes I need to remind myself of what happens when I stop taking care of my Self. A comfort zone. Funny how we need to keep our comfort zones even when they aren't comfortable! Don't get me wrong. I'm getting plenty of sleep. I'm eating well - well, maybe too well. Those Christmas desserts... but they are so good. The rest are going into the freezer!

And what do I hear myself saying?! That who or what I am is wrong??!! Woah! Back up, Patricia. Not! I simply let go for a few days. I finally finished a novel I'm reading. I watched some shows I fell behind on. I sat looking out my living room window admiring the beauty of winter. I spent Christmas with my family which I didn't host for the 1st time in decades and it was great. And did I mention those desserts?! I started a vision board!! Hey - who and what I am is right - all the time!

And today is a new day! Today, I'm back on track. Just writing this I feel a shift in my body and frame of mind - literally. In spite of what I have been doing, and enjoying, my body and mind take a hit when I'm not meditating or journaling, and posting. I feel less grounded. So I thank you for being there. For giving me the opportunity to share, to hopefully help you find your groundedness, some peace and calm in your day.

If you do nothing else today, might I suggest looking around you and find all that you can be grateful for...the least of which is your breath...which means your heart is beating - that glowing, loving heart. BE the love that you are.

Blessings,
Pat

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Great book that I keep by my 'me' chair. I refer back to it on a regular basis.
In 2018, why not learn the tools and insights you need to accelerate your personal growth through love and without turmoil.
https://www.amazon.com/Chakra-Evolution-Patricia-Wall/dp/1987945018/ref=sr_1_3_twi_pap_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1512404987&sr=8-3&keywords=chakra+evolution

Chaos to Calm~~~

I love Marianne Williamson who says "It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. ....And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Letting our lights shine brightly helps other to do the same - usually, hopefully.

I was sharing this remarkable feeling and shift I've made with someone this week - about the impact of how it has impacted my relationship with my husband - how we are in such a better place as I find more and more peace within - how my newfound sense of loving self, touches those around me - that our energy impacts everyone we touch in our lives. I was surprised at the pushback about the idea. Initially I felt tense and pushed back as well...until I realized their negative energy was impacting me and I hadn't protected myself. I felt sad and reminded myself that if I was to truly live what I believe that I needed to up my energy and send love and compassion even if they didn't want it.

Having love and compassion for others, including and maybe even more importantly, for those who are not on the same page as we are, who have doubt, resentment and anger, who are hiding behind their masks, something I was so good at myself - that is what being the love that we are is about - letting our love shine from within, our light shine from within. It's there. That's your heart beating.

If you are open to finding more of the love that you are from within, drop me a comment.

Blessings,
Pat
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