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I just want to be better than I was yesterday.
I just want to be better than I was yesterday.

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The same...but different.
I've kept an online blog as long as I can remember. It started as a bit of a joke, then it became about crafts and DIY and most recently, it was therapy. I chronicled a 3 year battle with depression, anxiety, defamation of character and just general unhappi...
The same...but different.
The same...but different.
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Defined by Joy
Hello! Apparently I have not blogged since August. That's not a bad thing...but it's a weird thing. My mom died last year and that was...a strange struggle. And then it wasn't. I also fought with a lot of depression and anxiety...and then I didn't. It seems...
Defined by Joy
Defined by Joy
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The Racist Bones in Our Bodies
I have racist bones in my body. When I went to Germany, I was really struck by how they owned their ugly history. There were monuments and memorials, very much a country of "this is not who we are, but we will not erase this ugliness, but rather, own it, so...
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I wish we were better.
I've read approximately a million stories this week on Chester Bennington's death and the impact he had on people who were/are struggling with mental health and/or traumatic pasts. Each one made me cry. Like so many others, his death hit me hard - much hard...
I wish we were better.
I wish we were better.
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The Edited Version of This Week's Anger
They say grief is a roller coaster. I'm going down. I'm so angry. I'm sad. I'm miserable. I'm furious. I want to break everything. I want to crawl into bed and never get out. I feel nauseous. My head hurts. Every post I write is a different emotion and here...
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Grief and death and a roller coaster ride from hell.
They say grief is a roller coaster. I'm going down. I'm so angry. I'm sad. I'm miserable. I'm furious. I want to break everything. I want to crawl into bed and never get out. I feel nauseous. My head hurts. Every post I write is a different emotion and here...
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Mother's Day
Mother's Day is hard. It always has been. I didn't want to go to church today. Mothers everywhere. Mother's Day in your face. But I went. We're in the process of cleaning my mom's house and packing her things. It's hard for my sister and my niece. Less so f...
Mother's Day
Mother's Day
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Mother's Day
Mother's Day is hard. It always has been. I didn't want to go to church today. Mothers everywhere. Mother's Day in your face. But I went. We're in the process of cleaning my mom's house and packing her things. It's hard for my sister and my niece. Less so f...
Mother's Day
Mother's Day
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Hello, Anger.
...I knew it would come. Have you ever noticed that no one dies who was less than perfect? Everyone who dies is elevated to sainthood. There is no room for complicated grief.  Just perfect memories of perfect people. At her Celebration of Life, people kept ...
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The day after my mom died, the outpouring of love for her was incredible.  People said how amazing she was, how she took care of everyone, how she was like a second mother to them, that she had the most generous heart and on and on and on... I was furious. ...
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