Hi! June 2015, total personal transformation. Everything shifted from indecision, self centered; deprecating image with no vision of the future-now life is the best picture story with endless possibilties. I feel invinsible; I can do anything I put my mind to. Days perceived as long and empty now are filled and go by so fast. Sadness has been replaced with Joy. My heart is filled with love for myself and others. How did this happen? Constant prayer and small steps I started in October 2014, after returning from a visit to Mom, Daddy and sisters. This visit marked seven years, since I had seen my family. The small steps I took; eating high qualtiy food, daily constant gratitude to God and excersize. My attitude? "Fake it till I make it". I saught out and talked with Mom and Dad every couple of days. Connecting with my siblings has been hard. Last week, I wrote letters and postcards, letting them know I love them and am always there. Expectations? None. I reconnected with my closest special friends, from my time in the Navy. Phone calls, letters, e-mails have ignited our friendship. I look foward to a trip back east to see them. I have not felt this spectacular in twenty years!. The hard path I have travelled began August of 1985, the news of a terminal illness, effecting our family. This devistating time affected all the family; my Aunts and Uncles, my cousins as well as my immediate family. Lives were lost, we were forever changed. I could not move foward, I was too invested. June 2015, all the"faking till I make it" took root, I have emmerged with such self empowerment. I want to share and spread my joy to everyone I know as well as people I meet. So, if we meet be prepared to feel loved and very special...because you are!