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Gwyndolyn “Mad Bike Woman” Vela
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“The race is won by the rider who can suffer the most” – Eddy Merckx
“The race is won by the rider who can suffer the most” – Eddy Merckx

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Truffle Shuffle
We're told to love our bodies no matter what they look like and that being big is beautiful, and while I don't see other people being fat or obese as a bad thing, I'm having a hard time applying my apathy towards body size to myself. What if you can't apply...

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The dog days are here
I've decided that I'm healthy enough to work. Because of how bad off I was, the plan was to get on disability pay in order to take the time I needed to get my meds straight and find some stability before I entered the workforce again. Between the russian ro...

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Nervous breakdown
Late November of last year I took 2 weeks of medical leave from work in order to deal with my overwhelming symptoms. I did so in order for my performance at work to stay at a functioning level; it was a preliminary strike in order to reign in my mental heal...

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A love letter to my husband
I always want to use the phrase "thanks for putting up with me," but I can't. In our 3 years together, and for the first time in my life, I've not once felt like a burden. I'm not something you put up with, you laugh with me when people would normally be la...

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Not quite bald
I lost over 30% of my hair while on lithium. It was one of the unfortunate side effects that I not only experienced but was hit pretty hard by. I didn’t have bald spots but it was an even, all over loss of volume that was pretty easy to see. My body was sta...

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Taking a break
After 6 months of medication complications and instability I have been left weak. Bipolar disorder isn't just being moody, it's losing control over what you feel at any given moment with long bouts of negative feelings and states of mind. It wears you down ...

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Just put me in a wheelchair, get me to the show
Just like clockwork, my winter depression has hit and is disrupting my ability to conduct my daily life. I'm having a hard time getting out of bed, staying on top of hygiene routines, and staying motivated to do anything. I sometimes still can't believe I h...

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Scream my face off
There are no laws in my favor when it comes to my situation (read here if you’re wondering “what situation?)  which I don't necessarily see as defeat. I actually feel like it frees me up to be able to speak out about what happened, I don't have to keep thin...

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No soup for you
This was the email exchange between my former employer and myself when I realized my symptoms were becoming a serious problem. If you read my other posts (Dog eat dog)  or (Nowhere to run)  you can get more insight as to what problematic symptoms can look l...
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