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Krys Camacho
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The day I heard God's voice. I was at the end of my wit. I was tired of the emotional roller coaster for a long time. I was searching for something that seems so impossible and I don't even what it is. People saw me happy and always laughing but they didn't know what was happening inside me. It was always important that others were happy even though I was miserable but it was now unbearable. I was ready to leave this world. It was not the first time I thought of ending my life, I thought of it for years. But in 2007, it was different. It was time! The only solution was to die. I got my things in order. I planned the date when I knew I would be home alone and by the time I am found it would be too late. This time, I didn't even care who found me unlike those other times I thought of it. I would always think that I did not want to put my mother through that because she has health issues and did not want her to have a heart attack and both my sisters would also be motherless. Those we were grown, we were close to our parents and it would truly break their hearts. On top of that, they would probably curse me everyday though I was dead. But, that day it didn't matter anymore. I wrote a letter apologizing and explaining why I had to do it. One last thing to do, I called my good friend and told him that I wanted to have lunch. I was not going to mention it to him but I did. He started telling me about God and I would listen but really I didn't understand. We met at our favorite restaurant and it was overlooking the ocean and the beautiful scenery around it. As we ate, he continued to talk to me about God but as I have said to him on the phone that not even him could stop me from doing what I know it's right. I was having such a wonderful time and day, I just wanted to treasure that moment.
When we got done with lunch and he was walking me back to my vehicle. He continued to talk about God and I just said, ok. I heard you but you cannot stop me. For the first time since I have known him, I never saw his faced so gloomed and he said goodbye as he stood outside the passenger door of my vehicle. He said, that he did all he could and that he would leave it to God now. I smiled at him, and said ok.
As I pulled off the parking lot, his vehicle was on the right side and I looked at him and smiled once more and waved goodbye. Normally, I would be in tears as I hate goodbyes but that day I was all smiles. I only had an 8 miles drive back home, and I shut off my cell phone so that he couldn't call me and try to talk me out of it some more. It was such a lovely day but it was different. The sun shining in my face but I'm not being blinded by it. I just wanted a quiet ride home so there was no music playing on the CD player or the radio.
Finally, I reached the exit and I was anxious. In just some minutes I would be home and I would get ready and take a bottle of pills and just go to sleep. It was all prepared before I left and I wasn't scared anymore not like those other times. As I got closer to home, there is a college nearby and then the big intersection and just as I got closer to it I knew the lights would turn red. It annoyed me.
I sat there waiting for it to turn green and it was taking longer than usual. I noticed that the light from the other side turned green a couple of times but I am still sitting in this red light. I thought the light at my end may be broken and I would cross it but there were cars coming from the left and right and I would cause an accident. Instead of thinking of how I would harm others, I thought it would just delay what I have to do if I got into an accident. How selfish! I sat there just waiting and thinking too back up a bit and try to get in the right line to make a turn but had to make sure it was clear.
I just took a deep breath and decided to wait and I know it would turn green eventually. It was quiet that day, and sun was just shining so beautifully. All of a sudden, I heard a voice. It was a man's voice and that voice asked me a question. He asked, "Why do you want to kill yourself?" His voice was clear but at the same time sounding far and with such authority in his voice. The normal reaction from me would be panic as I am alone in the car. There were no other people and vehicles beside and behind the vehicle. The windows were close and radio off. I didn't have to search or look around as I know I was alone. I was shocked but then I just sat there for a few seconds and when I could think, I replied, and my reply was "Why do I want to kill myself?" If you have seen those commercial from V-8 the Carrot juice, that's exactly how I was. As I sat there in amazement, the light turns green and I crossed the intersection and pulled over behind a convenient store parking lot. I parked my car, turned on the cell phone and call my friend who was still on his way back to work.
I told him what had happened and all he could say was "Praise the Lord', "Praise the Lord". I suddenly did not want to go home and I wanted to be out enjoying the gorgeous day. So, I turned around and got back on the freeway and we decided to meet at a park and just sat there for hours talking and laughing, and all the pain I was feeling emotionally have disappeared. The thought of killing myself never again entered my mind, even to this day. I know that it was God I heard because no one else would know what I was to do except for God and the friend I told it too. I am so thankful to God for saving me from hell. Because as we know, that our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit and when one commits suicide their last act is sinning against God by destroying the life He gave us. This is my first testimony. I will share my faithful day.. soon.... God Bless you and yours.. Praise the Lord.








Hi everyone! My name is Krys and I am grateful to be in God's family. My faithful day was In October 2007. I will share my testimony here soon but reading all your posts are truly a blessing to me. I just want to grow and grow and grow in God everyday and do things that are pleasing to Him. That's why I love reading the Word, Hearing the Word and sharing the Word... I am truly glad that I found this community. God Bless you and yours...

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