There are days when I feel as though we are collectively up the creek without a paddle. As an empath, I feel things deeply as my sensitive heart is in tune with everything that is going on in the world.
I've learned to tune into the loving and light energies and somewhat ignore the heavier and darker energies. (most of the time.. a Buddha, I am not. ) As we all know, focusing only on the positive has a way of bringing the shadow to the surface. Are we listening to it?
I'm feeling the same way I felt after 9-11 right now. There is a giant gaping hole in my heart.
I feel dispirited, disheartened and discouraged.
After 9-11, Bush suggested we all just keep going on with our lives. Go shopping, go to work, spend money.... I did the opposite. I quit the rat race and moved to the forest to practice voluntary simplicity, take care of my son and make art. But the world kept turning and it was business as usual for most.
I usually focus on the positive, get aligned with my heart and take a step forward.
But not today.
Today, I am giving myself the permission to feel the sadness and the discouragement in this present moment. It's been a tough (week, year, decade) and Trump is the straw that broke the camel's back.
It seems like the whole planet is hurting for one reason or another and I'm definitely not just talking about politics. Many of us are hungry and have no water to drink. Many of us are homeless, many of us are exploited or at war and many of us are destroying our planet. Far too many of us are unloved.
How can we possibly go about our business as usual?
HOW? and WHY?
We are all collectively responsible for the bad, and the good we are creating in this world, whether we are conscious of it or not.
What will it take for us to come together? Is it already too late? What world will our children and grand-children inherit?
I know tomorrow, I will roll my sleeves up, open my heart wider and work on solutions. But today, my heart weeps for the mess we've created. Please tell me I'm not alone. Please tell me it won't be business as usual.