The Change For the Past
Pin-Ren You, Division 2, 12th grade #ws18e-s2d2

There are many unforgettable memories in my life despite the fact that I am still young and tender. Among these precious memories are both pleasant and harsh experiences. While the delightful events are so remarkable that I often recollect them, the bitterness of sorrowful encounters is inevitable. As I look back into these occurrences, I would usually stumble upon a singular situation: knowing that it is necessary to try to exempt from impacts of the past, and yet unable to evade the attraction of them. Regardless of sensations I have when I face them, the feeling of emptiness is always undeniable. And since it is impossible to have everything done by my will, I have a few regrets in my life that I found them particularly opposing my ideals, and I would assuredly change them if I could return to the past.

Among all of the regrets I have, the thing I want to change the most is the immaturity I once had. My crude mind was the major cause that resulted in my poor outcome on the assessment which determined the senior high school I later went to. When I was still studying at junior high school in Taiwan, I feared failures so much that I rarely spend sufficient time on solving problems or difficulties I faced. Moreover, my lack of resilience also made me reluctant to to review the mistakes I made after taking testa. Watching the predicament going grave while wandering about with assertion on how challenging it would be, I was intrinsically eluding. It was this pessimistic viewpoint that dominated my destiny, and ultimately led me to an undesirable path. Therefore, I heartily believe that if I could ever return to the past, I would certainly have achieved a different goal by avoiding these dreadful practices.

Although my study at the senior high school was not very enjoyable, I did learn some important life lessons. In the beginning, I spent most of the time in solitude and only talked to very few classmates. I felt no antagonizing viewpoints toward me, but I was also unfamiliar with almost everyone. It was until two or three months after did I meet another classmate who was so sympathetic that he spent quite a long time explaining to me about the significance of getting acquainted with other people around us voluntarily. Instead of waiting for others to come and interact with us, we should reach out to them despite the fact that they may seem unfriendly. I later discussed with him about the point of giving my priority to those who interest me, since there is the concern of becoming dejected if we establish relationships with bad people. But he insisted that I should try to know other know other people better even though their first impressions are not so outstanding. I had later followed his advice and hanged out with these classmates I used to stay away from, then I realized they were actually better than I thought. Being unsatisfied in some ways does not mean one is completely unsociable. As there are both good and bad things everywhere, there is no point if refusing to approach new stuffs without trying beforehand. Vigilance is indeed essential, but it should not be overly exercised. Had I not put this school at the top of my list, I would probably have not known about these progressive ideals. I have been thinking about the situation over for quite a long time, and wondered whether I should have gone to a better school if I had been much more persevere. But if that occured, I would not have known this loyal friend , and likewise never seen these singularities of humanity so clearly that I would greatly enriched my life. However, if I could ever return to the past, I would still rectify my disturbing mind I once had. By being much more matured, I would absolutely have better problem solving skills so I can go to a school and have no difficulties with interpersonal relationships. This may not be the optimal decision, but could made these dispirited periods of my life more comfortable and optimistic.

There are many timings in life that one cannot expect, and these specific occasions often lead to different decisions. The choices one makes are mostly determined by one’s perception or attitude on the issue. Through distinct arrangements creates unique recollections. Among these events are myriads of sensations. If I could ever travel back to the past, I would certainly prefer to change the miserable parts despite the fact that there would be unattainable experience. However, it would be much better to have the gloomy times of my life more auspicious than realizing the right things to do afterwards. Knowing something better in the first place would definitely adjust notably on everything one used to know. Although this behavior does not bring a flawless result, its benefits largely outweigh the cost it takes. By making a change in the past, not only would I enjoy a more charming life, but also have better developments for both the present and future.
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