The first is food. I can not spend the time "cooking" (and/or all associated tasks- preparing, cleaning up, etc.) The foods to avoid shown are meals- like, pasta or fast food, etc. The good things to eat are ingredients, not meals. They are also more perishable, for instance, I can't eat a banana or bread, or drink milk after two days. I subsequently can't go to the store every two days. Therefore, I can't figure out how to eat and default to bad food (mostly fast food once a day, then a pre-packaged salad or pasta-type TV dinner later). Don't know how to eat healthy without wasting two hours a day on "cooking" tasks.
Second issue is relationships. I have been alone 17 years, and can I'm too old to date now (since I am attracted to women ~15 years younger than me, and society has programmed women to find that age gap repulsive). Still, I could have friends but I don't know how. I can't go places or "hang out" like people do. I don't like outdoor activities, and I don't "party". Sitting around talking is one of the most boring things ever. I'm a gamer, but most people my age (43) are not interested, so I have nothing to do with them. Even still, I go to Starbucks daily, and have for ten years- no one has ever introduced themselves and made friends in all that time. Because I'm older, I'm invisible. I can never change my age, so I get stuck on that massively. I am NOT my age. I view myself as like 27, not 43.
Last issue I get stuck on is the last point made about taking thoughts off of the feeling that you are controlled by life. I get the examples to not think of, but since I truly believe society does control things, I don't understand what I could think of that makes me feel like I have control- I never feel that way. Everything I need to operate as I would like ideally is not allowed by society. There are too many demands- deadlines, contracts, bills, clothes, etc., that are the same in all settings. I agree it's about certainty- my issue is a have to know I can meet those demands, and since I can't be certain I can, I can't function. So, I don't know how to feel in control- I don't believe I am, ever.
Then, combined with that, I ended up with near fatal food poisoning. I was laying in my own waste on my bathroom floor unable to move for a day. Those two experiences have made it impossible for me to eat fresh foods of a wide range after roughly 2 days. That means if I bought fruits, meats, vegetables, etc, I have to eat them ALL in 2 days, or throw out everything I didn't. (I can't eat leftovers, and I can't eat fresh things after freezing them, they always taste off after defrosting.) The last issue with that is due to my anxiety disorder, I can't go shopping every two days.
That's why it's frustrating. Our society doesn't have any companies truly looking out for our health by providing affordable, non-perishable meals that are good for you. Everything has to be processed to maximize profit! That means when you have my conundrum, you either eat healthy, and in my case waste tons of money and food, and throw up and get sick a lot... Or give up and eat bad. I don't like to deal with difficult things, so I give up. It's easiest, and that's how our lives should be- easy!