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Simon Cousins
All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. - Edgar Allan Poe
All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. - Edgar Allan Poe


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One of my favorite tunez of all time !

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Today's song veers back into personal territory but I'd like to talk a bit about neuroscience and the song itself first.

The "_You_" that exists in your head is not a singular "you", though we often think of it that way. It is a plurality of competing desires and wants, needs, motivations, desires, feelings, and more. This is why we argue with ourselves about exercise or what we want to eat. Why part of us chastises us for one too many brownies or skipping the gym and another part says "screw that; I don't feel up to it today." We are, in many ways, a walking contradiction.

This song is one of my favorites though I've met many who don't care for it. A particularly biting critique from a musician friend of mine centered on the pedestrian chords, simplistic structure, and "bad emo poetry" of the lyrics.

Fair enough I suppose, but I love this song. It is full of contradictory feelings which, in my mind, represent the various "you"'s competing for attention sprinkled with a little bit of self-awareness of the situation. Let's look at some of the lyrics:

Hello there
The angel from my nightmare

We are introduced to the characters, the singer and the object of his affection, in these two lines from which we learn that his life has been unpleasant/he suffers from depression and she represents a bright spot in all that darkness. For those who are new to my channel I suffered from a very deep depression for a long time, more than half my life as of today, though in a few more years that will no longer be true.

Next he sets up expectations and describes their quirky connection:

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

The repeated refrain I miss you reminds us that he misses her at this point; we know she's gone.

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry

He wants to know where she is and to apologize.

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time

He doesn't want to be alone in the darkness again/anymore. His feelings are drowning him in pain and he seeks her light as relief from it all.

And as I stared I counted
The Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides

This is more of that Emo poetry but I also think it reflects a bit of the ADD many of us have; some part of our brain chewing on some other thought even as most of our brain is working on another problem.

Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason

Here one part of him wants to figure out if he should call her, but doing so means hearing her say something that will hurt him and he knows that's the logical outcome, despite what he wants from her. The line your voice of treason bites deep.

Will you come home and stop the pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Still he can't help feeling a desire for her to just be there and help stop the pain.

So we see the contradictory feelings; he wants her, he fears her, He thinks she can save him, he thinks she will only make it worse, and he wants to not hurt anymore... But the refrain changes:

Don't waste your time on me
You're already the voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)

He knows it's all in his head. He knows she's all in his head. He knows he misses her. I believe he knows he cannot actually talk to her or reach out to her without making things worse, too... He repeats this refrain over and over, trying to remind/convince himself it's all in his head. In the end he still misses her.

So yeah, that's my take on the song and that's how I've felt about it when listening to it and yes, I've definitely associated that with someone before (and yeah; it was very accurate for that situation). It's possible to miss someone you don't want to actually see again. To need someone to come help take away the pain but to know they won't/can't and to try is only to make things worse... This brings me back to some dark times that I'm happy to not be in anymore but will never forget about either.

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Wondering if anyone knows the species of this little guy / gal ?

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