This piece that I have been working on. Mixed media and genres if I may use that word. This piece maybe the reason I have allowed myself to be booked for work sometimes triple booked. Non stop work
It is a hard difficult piece. The subject matter alone is to say as a way to protect myself, devastatingly submerged around lives in maturation.
It has taken me over a year to reach perhaps a half way. It is a real story where the events change because they are changing in real time. So you have to keep altering and altering. And there is the question of time. I do have to get the piece done before aging parents pass away.
I have turned down visual after visual, painting after metal work. So on. This piece is classical. It incorporates music art writing all the disciplines I studied in University. And sound engineering which I had the great luck to be at SFSU working with the sound engineer who did Apocalypse Now. (You are going to hear the way I hear sound not because it is about me but it works in this real life piece. It is like layering rice papers on the surface of rain puddles.
It has been over a year. I know this because the initial piece is in draft form on a private site where they date everything.
I realized it today. I have been dicking around with this piece because it is, it requires painful perfection. And there is an urgency to finish and get it out for this family. This piece is tragic. Not my tragic. But it hurts. Try to lift a sound word hue to this. This piece has to be perfect.
I am not a child. I have had extensive training. I know what the fuck I need to do.