Haven't actually shared anything but I will eventually
Haven't actually shared anything but I will eventually
The idea being if you share the Bell post they donate a little money to Mental Health Initiatives. That is great and all but it isn't enough. My story could have had a very dark outcome, most people in my situation would likely not have had the success I had. Please if you can donate to initiatives yourself. It can prevent suicides, homelessness, and substance abuse. It can save lives today.
I have dealt with Social Anxiety Issues most of my life. That means I didn't like going to Bars, public spaces, social events, and talking to Women (or anyone socially really).. Raj on the Big Bang Theory has better luck than I did. I can remember standing beside a girl texting her at 23 because I couldn't get words to come out of my mouth.
As time went on this became worse as people reinforced the triggers of my Anxiety. As time went on my Social Anxiety became General Anxiety, the General Anxiety developed Panic Attacks and by the time I was in my late 20s I wasn't functioning really well for months on end. By my 30s it had developed into full Agoraphobia.
I tried to get help many times, through the Mental Health Association to start because it seemed logical. The wait time to get therapy was basically infinity. Almost a year went by with nothing really, finally took myself off the waiting list because I was seeming to get better and I had moved hours away to North Bay. I had a another breakdown little more than a year later and again tried to get help.. I couldn't. There was none.. this time not even the Mental Health Association really had anything support.. (why they exist in North Bay I don't know) Tried to see a Therapist.. but he was rude and wholly unhelpful.
When things got really bad in 2011 I once again turned to the Mental Health Association Waiting List. I also used work Insurance and discovered that the Peel Region had it's own system in place I even tried my family Doctor. The insurance company spent more time trying to prove I was faking it rather than providing support, my doctor repeatedly asked me to come to his Church, and the therapist I started seeing thought the root of my problem was I wanted to have sex with my male friend... (he's a chud I don't know what his wife sees in him omg he is ugly.. almost more than me) Thankfully the Peel Regional system got me to see a mental health Nurse who tried a therapy that provide the first real improvement. It was only 4 sessions of a therapy program that would take anywhere between 10-20 sessions.
A few months ago the Insurance Company finally stepped in and offered help. Set me up with a therapist who could build on the work peel region did (3 years after the fact) and may help get me healthy.
My journey was to look for help 4 times, take 4 different medications 2 of which made me much worse, went through 7 therapist, had a doctor try to convert me to his religion, and an insurance company that scared my employer so much that the word nervous or anxious was taken to mean violent or crazy. Making them scared to have me in the building.
Had I got the support I had in the past 4 months I would have controlled my anxiety in 2007 been much more functional for the last 8 years. Had I received it in 2011/2012 I would have likely been successful in my return to work the first time, and avoid the later attacks.
The Talking is good.. but more needs to be done... donate if you can to initiatives in your area. Peel Region can only offer 4 sessions of therapy due to funding. So donating to programs that offer proper therapy to those that medications don't help. That alone is a big big step.
Also talking with your MPs and MPP/MLA to help fix the insurance companies so that they do more than just deny deny deny. The Insurance Company Approved my claim in January of 2012, and then denied it in March 2012, and it look nearly 8 appeals and a really bad night before they finally approved it permanently in June of 2014.
So Talk is good, action is better. I'm a lucky case, if not for my family being there to help and support me during two years with no income while the insurance company tried their damnedest to twist everything there were give to try to say I wasn't sick... I could have ended up hospitalized, homeless or much much worse.
Was out shooting with someone tonight. The Casino is a tough thing to shoot as nothing is straight. everything seems to be on some form of slant on all three axis' Nice to have a bit of fun here and there.
There are a few things I could have done differently.. but honestly I'm pleased with it.. It is a fair bit different while being the same.
I'm not totally unhappy with it.. They weren't very big by todays standards. 600 pixels or so and I'm not really an expert at enlarging.
I can live with it though, and she seems happy :)
I have a love of Vampires. Near Dark is one of my favourite movies, when I was in high school Anne Rice inspired me to do a paper on "The Evolution of the Vampire as an Anti Hero in Modern Literature" I never turned it in because I never turned anything in high school but the research was awesome.
So when I do Vampy make up stuff I have fun with it. However it has been pointed out that not everyone has my appreciation of images like this... so I try not to post them too often beyond the Halloween season.
I knew this was a Tit but wasn't sure what kind, I can't recall ever seeing one of these before. I believe it is a Tufted Titmouse which aren't super common in Canada.
I work in the Financial Industry with a big five bank for my day job, and am passionate about technology, history, and culture. Of late I have been enjoying organizing and participating in photowalks through my connections on Google+.
When I'm not photographing I'm usually reading about history, Wikipedia, or researching one thing or another. I also tend to Hike or Walk a fair bit. I spent my formative years in the Niagara Region and recently moved back after nearly a decade away.