By this I don't simply mean wondering aloud, but I cried out to God, begging Him to answer my questions, then I physically took the time to seek if the answers had already been made available, pouring over the bible and any other source I could find like a thirsty desert wanderer looking for water. It was an arduous journey, it was not a walk in the park. But I knew that the answers to my questions were worth pursuing. Unfortunately, in my outside observations, it seems most people drift through life expecting Jesus to walk up to them and beg them to accept Him. That is not the way it works, because in truth He has already provided us everything, it is our choice whether we will take the time, whether that takes days or months or years, to seek after Him.
Deut 4:29 - "you will seek the Lord your God, and you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul." (bold emphasis mine)