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Laura Lynn
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What I desire from a lover.

This is what I want from a lover.

I want to be pampered. I want my lover to help me dress up as a woman. I want her to help me to do my makeup and style my hair so I look as much like a woman as possible. I want to be dressed in an elaborate evening gown.

I then want to go out with my lover on a dream date. I want to have the perfect night out on the town.

Next I want to go to my lover's home and while I am still dressed in the evening gown, I want to be strapped to a bed. I want to be completely helpless and entirely at my lover's mercy. I may even wish to be blindfolded and gagged.

Then I want my lover to bring me to orgasm again and again. I want her to show me no mercy. I want to cum until it hurts.

Finally I want to be left there in her bed, unable to move, over night.

Is there something wrong with these desires?
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I find this highly wonderful and erotic.
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NPR's refusal to respect Bradley Manning's wishes
http://www.jimchines.com/2013/08/gender-and-pronouns-and-npr/

Recently a spokeswoman from NPR had this to say about Pfc. Bradley Manning's desire to be considered a woman and referred to as Chelsea.

  "National Public Radio will continue for now to refer to Private Manning as 'he.' ... Until Bradley Manning’s desire to have his gender changed actually physically happens, we will be using male-related pronouns to identify him."

This is ridiculous. This is exactly why many transgendered people fear to come out and reveal their true selves in public. This is just one more example of the hatred and bigotry that transgendered people have to deal with every day of their lives.

This is one more example of the problem that destroyed my marriage. When I came out as a crossdresser to my wife, her first reaction was that she did not marry a woman.

If Bradley Manning wishes to be known as Chelsea Manning and wishes to be referred to as she or her, then for pity's sake, respect her wishes.
I don't understand why this is so hard to understand for some people, I really don't. I have a friend who is transitioning into who she really is and I think it's wonderful that she's dropped her mask of being Joe and is showing us who she really is, Josie. It's the first time I've had a friend ...
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I really enjoy this series of videos by Jessica Who. In this video, http://youtu.be/kQ71xtmhzco, she discusses 5 things she hates about crossdressing and 5 things she loves about crossdressing.

I can honestly say that I agree with her for the most part. The areas where we differ are primarily a result of my idiosyncrasies.

To begin with, I do not wear makeup. I want to wear makeup but I have no idea how and I have not yet put forth the effort to learn how.

In addition, I do not bother with tucking. Perhaps I should. To be honest it simply did not occur to me.

There are areas in which I agree with her completely though.

To begin with, I hate shaving. I shave my legs, between my legs, my arms, my under arms, my face, and my chest. Fortunately I naturally do not grow much hair on my chest and face and hair grows slowly on my legs and arms. In addition, I do not have sensitive skin so shaving is not that much of a hassle.

I do shave my face, my under arms, and between my legs every day and I only shave other areas occasionally. Perhaps I should do it more often but I hate shaving.

I also share her views about society. When I began crossdressing I was in the closet. I only crossdressed at home and I wore men's clothing in public. I lived two separate lives even though it caused me pain.

I have begun to come out of the closet though and I now wear men's clothing less and less often. There are still a few places where I have not yet dared too reveal my true self, though there are few such places now. This slow coming out of the closet is a result of my fear that society will not understand.

I also love breast forms. I have a pair that I truly love to wear. I love the way they make me look and feel. I wear a D cup bra with my breast forms.

I especially agree with her views about women. I hate the fact that society assumes that crossdressers are gay. I am not gay. I am not homophobic, but I definitely am not gay. I have absolutely no interest in men. I love women and I long to find a woman who will accept me for who I am.

#crossdressing #crossdresser   #transgender #transvestite  
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Lost.  Alone.
Many people in my vicinity but none near me.
Feeling like an outsider, set apart from the world all around me.
Stuck in a relationship in which all joy has been lost.
No friends or acquaintances.
No family other than the family of the one with whom all joy has been lost.
No social skills.
No knowledge of how to make friends.
Too frightened to tell a woman I think she is beautiful.
Afraid of rejection.
Lost in my pain with no way out in sight.

A ghost in the world.
Able to see the world.
But not seen.
Not able to affect the world I live in.

Feeling like there is only me now.
Only me.

That is me.

I am In a man's body but I am wearing the clothes of a woman.
I am male but I identify with women far more than I do with men.
I have no desire to become a woman but I feel that I am a woman in all the ways that matter.
However, I do wish I had breasts so this dress would fit me better.

The one who I may have once loved will not accept me for who I truly am.

I admit I have made mistakes with her.

First I married the first one who came into my life who showed me she cared.
I married her even though I did not truly know what love is.

Next I kept from her who I truly am.
For years I wore only men's clothing in order to keep her.
As a result I grew to resent her.

How do I find that someone who will accept me for who I truly am?
How do I find a woman who will love a man who feels he is himself a woman?
This I would dearly like to know.

Lost.  Alone.
Seeking help.  Hoping to find a way out of my pain.
Wishing I could once more find the joy in life I have lost.
Wishing I dared share this under my real name.
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What I desire from a lover.

This is what I want from a lover.

I want to be pampered. I want my lover to help me dress up as a woman. I want her to help me to do my makeup and style my hair so I look as much like a woman as possible. I want to be dressed in an elaborate evening gown.

I then want to go out with my lover on a dream date. I want to have the perfect night out on the town.

Next I want to go to my lover's home and while I am still dressed in the evening gown, I want to be strapped to a bed. I want to be completely helpless and entirely at my lover's mercy. I may even wish to be blindfolded and gagged.

Then I want my lover to bring me to orgasm again and again. I want her to show me no mercy. I want to cum until it hurts.

Finally I want to be left there in her bed, unable to move, over night.

Is there something wrong with these desires?
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Every time I become so lonely that I am on the verge of giving in to despair I remember this picture.

It is sometime difficult to not give up. I am terribly alone. I have no friends or acquaintances. I have no social skills. And, as if that were not enough, I am afraid of most social situations.

What I long for more than anything else is a friend, preferably a woman, who would accept me for who I am, a male crossdresser who in many ways identifies himself more as a woman than a man but who has no interest in transitioning.
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Lost. Alone.
Trapped in a marriage that began when I was too young.
Bound to one with whom all love has been lost.

I go out to avoid the pain of being alone,
only to experience even more pain
as a result of my social ineptness.

Desperate for tenderness.
Desperate for love.
Too shy to tell a beautiful woman I want to kiss her.
Alas, what am I to do?

Am I to pay for my mistakes for all my years?

Since my wife,
who I was once infatuated with,
but never truly loved,
demands financial support until the end of her days
and I am not a wealthy man,
it seems I shall.

How can I escape this hell I am living in?
I do not know.

I made the mistake of keeping from her
the fact that I prefer to wear woman's clothing
and in fact see myself as more female than male.

I was a broken winged eagle,
in pain and desperate for love.

I was afraid that she would not accept my true nature,
so I hid it from her.

She healed my broken  wing
and for a time I suppressed my true nature for her.

But in time the pain grew to be too great
and I revealed my true self.

She could not cope.
She said she married a man and not a woman.
She caged me instead of setting me free.

When the pain grew to be too great
I asked for a divorce.
She screamed alimony.
And so I remain bound to her to avoid financial ruin.

I wish that she would once more be the wind beneath my wings,
as she once was to me.
And if not, I wish hat she would set me free,
rather than be the lead weights that bind me to the ground.
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Pinellas Park, Florida - Saint Petersburg, Florida - Lexington, South Carolina
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Crossdresser trying to make his way in the world. Also a Software Engineer and Aspiring Author.
Introduction
I am a male crossdresser.  In many ways I identify myself as a woman, but I have no desire to become a woman.

For the most part I am in the closet.  While I do go out in public while wearing the clothes I prefer on occasion, I try to keep that part of my life separate from the rest of my life.  Most of the people who know me do not know I am a crossdresser.

I wish I had the courage to come entirely out of the closet, but I do not.  Hiding who I truly am from the rest of the world is tearing me up inside.

I also am a self taught software engineer and an aspiring author.
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  • University of South Carolina
    Mechanical Engineering, 1997 - 1998
  • Midlands Technical College
    Biology, 1994 - 1997
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