I don't think she wants to be that big. I don't think she is striving for that. I think it's an underlying pain that she has grown tired of fighting and so therefore, she's decided to give up on her self worth and devalue herself (which is what she really feels deep down inside) and just go full speed ahead in the wrong direction. When someone has so much pain that this is the manifestation of it, they can sometimes grow tired of trying to feel happy or valuable. What better way to deal with her true pain than to hide behind tons of flesh and call it intentional and then give it the ludicrous label of "I want my body to match my personality." I say to her, using the words of the great Lamarr Wilson, "sssSTOPIT" and "are you crazy?" It's possible that I am wrong but, seeing as how only an eensy weensy teeny weeny percentage of the human race finds this attractive, that means the rest are tearing her down and making fun of her and that has to hurt. Therefore, it makes NO sense for her to want this for herself.