I feel like posting a friendly PSA.
So, last week was a good week, and we were very busy as a family... but consequently, I didn't get enough sleep, and even after resting all weekend, I'm still fighting a sleep deficit. I'm telling you what, sleep deprivation is crippling. I'm constantly ridden with guilt at having to sleep when my family is awake and wanting my time, but every time I don't do it, I suffer for days until I can catch up.
I think (as I close in on my 40th birthday) the one thing I struggle with the most is not being able to do as much as I want to do in a single day. My physical limitations I'm okay with. My mental prowess is still going strong as well. But when my cognitive functions suffer because I can't sleep, from just not enough time, or sleep apnea... If nothing else, I feel like a failure and like something's wrong with me, but the truth is most of the world today functions without enough sleep.
I know people that function on 5 hours a night or less. Heck, I used to do it on a regular basis. But at some point, it will come back to bite you. It is a vicious cycle, and it can be very dangerous. I still think my big accident 3 years ago could have been avoided if I weren't so tired (even though I didn't do anything wrong, I might have looked twice).
And sadly, my relationship with coffee has to suffer for it. I started drinking it when I was working crazy flip-flop hours, and I never shook the habit, because it was easier to drink a strong cup than go to bed an hour earlier. My brain was still running, so why not? And yet, I was setting myself up for failure. It's 10 years later and I'm still struggling with it.
It's estimated that 20% of car accidents are caused by sleep deprivation, not to mention other errors (medical, etc.)
I am slowly learning to deal with it, even though I hate having to admit I can't stay up forever. I haven't gotten to where I need medical intervention, but I definitely am more aware of it now than I was even a year ago.