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Facepalming over an elsenet post from a presumably older adult ranting because their old computer won't run a just released game, and all their old games work just fine, so why won't this one, and no one will upgrade their computer for a game, and the game industry is going to wither away and die if they keep expecting people to buy new hardware, people will only buy games from the bargain bin! And they're a 'casual gamer' so they should know!

Others are being very gentle with them; explaining that yes, new games really do often require hardware upgrades, and you really can't expect a computer that is several years old to run an newly released, optimized game, and no it isn't a scam or fraud, that's how the game industry works... yes, your old games work just fine, because they were made for that level of computer.

It's kinda sad, because the person obviously has no clue how computers or games or the industry works.

The "I backed this game, therefore they should have made a game that plays on a 3 year old computer!" is coming up in comments, but the general answer is "No, no they shouldn't have."
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(That said, my next one is definitely getting SSD. Mmm.)
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Here's something you should know:
Under spoiler tags for discussion about sexual assault and birth
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For someone who has experienced any level of sexual assault, even the idea of childbirth can be terrifying. What is also terrifying, is that even childbirth professionals didn't grok this until recently; the last decadeish, really (The first in depth book on the subject, When Survivors Give Birth, came out in 2004).

In retrospect, it makes sense; being pregnant, giving birth- it involves losing direct control over your body, and your genitalia, in a very visceral way. It involves trusting someone else to be doing things down there, without always being aware of exactly what's happening.

So it is no wonder that someone who has abuse in their past, might be adamant about never giving birth- and that is their right to make that decision about themselves. No one should ever feel guilted into having children.

But even people who are excited about being pregnant, who are looking forward to giving birth, can be blindsided by feeling that come up during giving birth, even to the point of impacting the progress of labor itself, without conscious effort.

There's been progress, because more people are talking about their abuse experiences, and more providers are learning what to do, but there's still a long way to go; our culture idealizes childbirth as a whoely positive experience, and t'aint always so.


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Wanna know what your favourite game publisher is up to? Ask 'em yourself by checking out the Live Publisher Q&As taking place all weekend long in The Coin & Quill featuring these folks below and many, many more:

Catalyst Game Labs http://www.catalystgamelabs.com/
Chaosium http://www.chaosium.com/
FASA http://www.fasagames.com/
GG Studio http://ggstudio.eu/en
Inkworks Productions http://www.unwrittenrpg.com
Kobold Press http://www.koboldpress.com/
Playground Adventures http://www.playgroundadventures.net
Storm Bunny Studios http://www.stormbunnystudios.com
The Ed Greenwood Group http://www.onderlibrum.com/

Also remember to check out the Vendors Hall AetherCon Weekend for really cool stuff on sale: http://www.aethercon.com/VendorsHall.asp

Come on out and be a part of the dice rolls heard 'round the world!


#livepublisherqna   #rpgconvention   #tabletoprpg  
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So today's Dr's appointment included the phrase "You have the eyes of a 70 year old, and that's not good." Evidently my eyes are super dry. And not just in a "Use some artificial tears every once in a while, you'll feel better." way, but in the causing vision deterioration and tissue damage sort of way. So my eyes are now in 'hydration boot camp'- prescription and OTC drops 4x a day, cool compresses 2x a day ("Use a sack of peas, they mold nicely to the face."), and prescription ointment nightly.

The good news is that my prescription only changed a little (although I'm to 'bifocals are probably a good idea' range now), and fixing the hydration issue should clear up the blurry, smeared effect I have now (The analogy used was that my vision is ok, but I'm trying to see through a dirty windshield.)

If ever there was a poster child for the physiologic impact of long-term stress, I'm it. 
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Attached are pictures of a wordpress page I manage, the output, and the cludgerrific code I used to create said output. The overall output is a page with a list of people like this. Is there a less cludgy, crappy way for me to get the same result?


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Your HTML is actually pretty clean—bravo! If it were me, the next step, which would require some deeper WordPress/PHP programming, would be to make your data entry a little more structured, so that you don't have to repeat the layout and format for each person by hand. I'd basically create a custom post type called "mentor," and custom fields for the photo, classes, locations, etc. Then I'd create a special page template where you would copy that HTML, but replace all the specifics with PHP variables that correspond to those custom fields. So the page template would repeat that same HTML for each mentor. The result is that you'd only have to define your layout in one place, and if you ever needed to change it, you would only have to do so once. (But this may or may not be worth your time, depending on how often you need to change the info vs. the pain and aggravation of PHP coding...)
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The thing about PTSD, is that you can go days and even months seeming stable and normal, and then something will trigger falling completely apart. Today was one of those days, and it'll take time to not feel fragile. So if you don't see me around, I'm ok- I just can't manage the input of social media right now. 
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Thank you :). I was never diagnosed with anything, but it seems I have this. I'm interested even if I don't because I'm am Empath. :)
P.S. I added you because Iab said you wanted to run a demo module for UNWRITTEN! Count me in! I'm Pacific time. I'm the one that suggested to Ian we play online through Hangouts or something and it's been fun! I can't wait to play in your campaign! ^_^
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Today I need to talk about something painful. And I need to do it publicly because just unpacking it for the therapist won't do (although I'll do that, too.) I have touched on it before, but I feel like I am being dishonest to myself and others if I don't 'came clean', as it were. I'm puting it under the break, because it is a triggering subject.
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I was a really crappy mother. No, more than that, I was an abusive mother. Now, I can talk long and hard about the circumstances that pushed me to breaking point, and what years and years of unrelenting stress on top of emotional abuse by a, (ex) spouse can do to a person's psyche... but it doesn't change the fact that I physically abused my daughters. And that I came very very close to being one of those monsters that murders their disabled child.

This isn't something I will ever recover from, it won't be something that ever heals. I will always have the knowledge that I crossed lines that no real mother ever does. When people talk about how they admire me, or they think I'm so 'strong', it burns like breathing in superheated air. Because I wasn't strong, I wasn't amazing, I didn't survive. I was a being of rage and hate and horror. I was the sort of thing people talked about in hushed, disgusted tones. I will never know anything but shame.

With Corri, we can talk about it, we can work towards healing the wounds I left on her heart and soul... but I can't ever say I'm sorry to Mirriam. She wouldn't understand what I was trying to say, what I was trying to do...all she will ever understand is that her mommy hurt her, and hated her.

I don't deserve the admiration and accolades and kindness and care people give me, and sometimes I wish it would just stop. 
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Thank you, all.
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Beauty & The Beast (the Disney version) is not Stockholm Syndrome, and it drives be nuts when people say that. Yes, she's technically a prisoner- but he doesn't wear her down through kindness, or making her empathize with his plight. He's a jerk to her, and she stands up to him, constantly. She even walks out on him, and if not for meeting up with the wolves, probably would have walked right home; and Beast wouldn't have come after her, or retaliated or anything. She wears him down, until he's forced to confront that fact that he's been a horrible person all these years. 
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OK, THAT was stupid.

I'm sick- some sort of head cold/fatigue that's hanging on like crazy. I had some tasty meats, and was going to lay down... but then I got frustrated about something, and that lead to frantic cleaning for about 1/2 hour.

Now I'm sweating like crazy, my head is throbbing, and my bed has stuff piled on it. Now I have to move stuff, and then I can lay down. Oh, and someone's mowing their lawn nearby. Ugh. 
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If you're a Callahanian or a D'ni Nerd, yes, this is that Eleri.

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Birth, Myst, Gaming, Crafty Stuff, Woo, Polyamory, My Family, Dealing With Government Agencies, WTF is up with the Right Wing, Nerdy Geeky Stuff, Bouts of Self Pity, Bouts of Mushy LoveyDovey.

The Sort Of Nonsense Up With Which I Will Not Put: 
Proselytizing about your political/religious/social viewpoint. I don't mind being disagreed with, but if you start claiming the One Right True Way, I will thwap you. 

Nasty comments about people with disabilities. If you are into that shite, GTFO of my Google+

Homophobic or Anti-GLBTQOMGWTFBBQ comments. Just no. 

Personal attacks. Duh. 

"That internet drama in the game industry that's about ethical journalism, no really". Seriously, if you're proGG, you do not want to be around me. 

ZOMG RON PAUL. There will be none of that. 

A tangental note: Discussing libertarian political viewpoints in my posts is probably a Bad Idea. I just fundamentally don't get the mindset. It is so opposite mine, I can't wrap my brain around it. I'm unlikely to get real pissy unless it gets nasty, I'm more likely to just drop the conversation. (The only time I have ever gotten REALLY mad, was when someone elsenet said my disabled daughter should never be allowed to vote because she was a beneficiary of government services.)
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