So, there is no easy way to say it... I found out one week ago today that I have prostate cancer.
They believe it is treatable -- I'm young and healthy. Unfortunately there is a lot on my plate right now. (The person who said, 'God only gives you what you can handle' is full of it.)
While this is a more virulent form of prostate cancer -- prostate cancer is all over the maps... some forms are easy to deal with, like skin cancer... others are quite severe... mine is more on the virulent side -- a 7 on what they call the Gleason score.
The initial diagnosis is that is treatable. We are going to do more tests, but, again, the initial guess is that it will be surgery. But there are a few steps to go before we reach a final decision.
While this news really... well, sucks... and it is remarkably difficult to hear that you have cancer... That being said, I feel healthier than I've been in my entire life -- holistically healthier, so if ever I was prepared, that time is now.
AND... even amid what has been a difficult period of my life... I have SO much to live for... my amazing son... I am blessed to do work that I LOVE and that truly energizes me each and every day... I get to talk to smart people doing amazing, remarkable work every day... and I get to 'help government do it's job better.'
Not to mention my ongoing life quest to get healthier.
Friday was a tough day. I'm not going to lie to you. But... I have more work to do. I'm not going anywhere. You are all stuck with me for time to come -- sorry about that!
AND... I have the most amazing friends anybody could ever ask for... people who have been there... during good and bad... And for that, I can't thank you enough... I'd say from the bottom of my heart, but at this point, it is really coming from the heart of my bottom wink emoticon
(TRYING to find some humor here! The prostate just ain't that funny!)
So... I'm got on my bike yesterday -- again, party of my ongoing quest to get healthier... particularly at this point in time, I want to keep the connection between mind and body. (Of course, when the doctor is talking about surgery, I'm thinking, "DAMN IT -- this is going to F-up another biking season.')
Meanwhile... I will continue to work to live in the present, which is all I can control.
Thanks for your thoughts. MUCH appreciated. #Cancer