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Cecilia ちゃん
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In real life Im the shy girl
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Ive had acne ever since I was 12 years old and now I am fifteen ... This video is like ... a reflection of my past ... So like the comment that I would always get was "Does she ever wash her face?" and "Stop wearing so much makeup."
So I got depression and years later here I am dealing with mental issues from bullying and torment... yeah ... I washed my face for the longest time and it didnt work because of horomones, but now my skin is clearer because my horomones calmed down..
I just think people need to stop and think about how perfect they are before they start picking on someone else for not meeting up to what they think is perfect
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Ok So I guess Ill add a song list to this later but, I vowed to never sing online again because of all the hate I got last time but, i just said screw it because haters are not worth my time ...
Anyways ... yea
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You know what I hate, people.... People who ruin others lives...
People that forget who they are and people who control others...
And sadly Ive done both of those things ...
Right now ... (Since the internet doesnt end and no one cares particularly on here) .... My life sucks completely and here is why
My Dad cant get a job because he is being so damn negative that he wont attract anything positive. My mom is smoking and always talking on her phone so, she's basically abandoned me...
We dont eat dinner or any meals together so, I am having probs with my weight. My brother is mentally ill and plays video games all day and night and is only 11 and curses up the walls calling me fat and ugly all the time. My dog eats itself and licks at its skin all the time because it has skin probs and we dont have the money to get it taken to the vet. I went to the ER for headaches a bunch of times because I was having insomnia and stuff and I cost a bunch of money that now my family cant afford even further. Im probably gonna get an ED because Im so screwed up allready.
I blame myself for most of my family's probs and force myself to work (like excessive house cleaning) because of them instead of being happy. I had a mental breakdown from insomnia recently and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was just having sleeping problems, I messed up my medical record forever and now the doctor wants me on anti-depressants which I refuse to take because I have a feeling that the risks are too great with them.
We have to go to the food bank to get by and I really don't like eating the way we do even though being vegan previously made me crazy. Now I often feel worthless and dumb because I cant get a job and I mess things up. Ugh ~
Im also upset because I cant help pay bills ...
And Im an introvert because Im scared of people because Ive been hurt so many times so.. that just makes things worse..
And then..my dad is not making enough money and we're struggling to get by in Indiana. People wont hire him because the state and economy is crappy.
I keep applying for jobs and i keep getting no luck because the state here has we only hire at 16 rule that Utah and many other rich states dont!
My life feels so bad that cutting, not eating, binging or anything else wouldnt even make it feel better.
My friends made fun of my love for another culture last year and I ditched them because it was hurting me more... Ive been bullied harder before and it destroyed me... I dont trust people now .. 
And now when others see my dark side they run...


I just feel lost inside now... Like hollow...and ....once I forgot everything from insomnia induced physcosis...
I freaked out... But, now..... Im wondering what if I forgot again...now...would I ...even care... to try to freak out... and remember...ugh
. ~ well im... gonna go..
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I don't even know who I am anymore 
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I meant you can taste the rainbow. XD. Hangout with me though, I went through similar stuff like you. I can help you. 
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omg how I miss this show 
:,,( I wish they would bring it back
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Ok So I guess Ill add a song list to this later but, I vowed to never sing online again because of all the hate I got last time but, i just said screw it because haters are not worth my time ...
Anyways ... yea
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goes to bed 
Will they miss me when Im gone


Naaaaa
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list of things to go when mad at self..
1. Think about all the medical bills that have piled up due to you being stuipid.
2. Cry because you cant get a job
3. Try to remain optimistic even though your life is in the toilet.
4.Listen to your dad negatively rant about how he isn't making enough money
5. Apply for modeling jobs even though you have no garente to be hired.
6.Work out
7.Play video games
8.Apply for more jobs online and wait for crappy awkward phone calls
9. Remember that the therapist said "things get worse before they get better" bullshit isnt relevant.
10. Watch youtube
11.Wait for school to start.
12. stare into space
Idek why I try anymore..... Damnit
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I Don't care what you think about me!
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  • Not here
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"I don't care anymore." "私はもう気にしません。"
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私はビーガンです。私は、肉や魚や日記を食べていません。私は付き合っていないです。私は独身です。私はアメリカに住んでいます。私は生きている人形です。私が年を取るときに日本に移動します。
I am straight.. Single.. I don't mingle well.. I'm Tsundere in real life!
So I don't date and I don't have friends in real life. But online has exceptions to friendship.
I don't date atm.
I have two names... A Doll name and A real name..
My doll name is Cecilia Chan and my real name is Vic for short.
Mind your own business and I'll mind mine, don't start an argument with me because it will escalate quickly. ... You cannot change me...
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Vic, Lolli
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