Couple that with having spent, now, the large majority of my life as a Christian as opposed to an unbeliever,so I have the unique privilege of being able to look back and see the many ways that God has directed and blessed my life.
I find myself many times these days thinking back on all the people that have touched my life and the many ways that events and circumstances have affected my thoughts and actions and I sometimes get overwhelmed. It truly has been a blessed life I've lived despite the many mistakes and acts of outright rebellion that have grieved not only people I have touched, but God himself.
But I've also been able to realize how much God loves me and how wide and broad are his arms of grace, so that the many regrets I have for past mistakes do not have to be carried with me the rest of my life. Jesus death on the cross 2000 years ago has freed me from that slavery, and I am now free to experience and share that gift of grace with others.
I have the joy of living out whatever years I may have left knowing that God is my father, and I have the ultimate privilege of fulfilling his will for my life. WHAT A WAY TO LIVE!!
PS. This is not a "near to death confession" or remembrance - just in case those of you who know me might be thinking that. My plan is to live a good many more years.