OK, normally I wouldn't post a shirtless mirror selfie. I'm sorry.
But I woke up this morning for my first BJJ tournament and this is the record I have of feeling ready to go. Right now I feel ready to die (or more likely, drink beer in the hot tub.) I trained hard, prepared hard...but not hard enough. There is nothing, nothing that preps you for how exhausting competition is. You can train as hard as you want in class (not that I did....), but it's just not the same intensity as when you're staring down a stranger with something actually on the line. I won my first match and felt amazing--but could barely stand and was seeing stars.
I did pretty well--2 wins, 2 losses (submission-only tournament), third place overall and I handily kimura'd the winner...so I'm OK with it. Not good enough--anything less than the best is a felony--but a good start.
So time to drill more, get the moves into muscle memory instead of real memory. Time to condition more--longer rounds and less breaks. Ruck with the dogs---no excuse not to get a workout while they do. Cut another ten pounds of dead weight.
I can be better. I will be better.